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The Phoenix Rising from the Ashes: DAY 6

April 20, 2012 in Anna's Journey to Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to rise as a phoenix from the ashes, in allowing myself to let go of the past and start anew burning through and with and in and as self-forgiveness what was before, so as to allow myself to emerge anew

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and fear that the symbol of the phoenix rising from the ashes is “too big” for me to apply myself within and align myself to, in oneness and equality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that others will see me aligning myself to the phoenix rising from the ashes and judge me for being pretentious in using such a symbol – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I have projected my own self-judgment of myself outside myself in separating myself from my own self-judgment and from accepting myself as less than the symbol of the phoenix rising from the ashes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within and as a relationship with the symbol of the phoenix rising from the ashes in polarity of seeing and accepting myself as less than the phoenix and the phoenix as more than me and within defining myself as a phoenix rising from the ashes, have defined myself as more than myself – instead of simply accepting and allowing myself to embrace the symbol of the phoenix rising from the ashes – removing all definitions of polarity and positive/negative energetic charges and as such align myself here, one and equal to the symbol of the phoenix rising from the ashes and as such align the symbol of the phoenix rising from the ashes to what is best for all, in and as a living practical application of self-purification and rebirth of self here as life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to interpret and understand the phoenix rising from the ashes as a noble and romantic symbol of rebirth, instead of embracing the symbol as a practical and living application of renewing myself through letting go of the past, so as to allow myself to emerge as new

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear walking into the flames and alighting myself in flames, through, as and within self-forgiveness in purifying myself and letting go of the past, so as to allow the new to emerge

I forgive myself, that I, within resisting, refusing, hesitating and fearing to walk myself into and as the flames of burning away the old, have accepted and allowed myself to remain and exist as a shadow and as an echo, because it is not physically possible to live and exist in the past and thereby by insisting to hold on to myself in and as the past, having allowed myself to separate myself from myself here in and as the physical

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize, that to let go of the past, requires that I walk into the flames and burn away the old completely and totally so as to allow myself to emerge as new from the ashes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist, refuse and not allow myself to let go of the past, symbolized by and within the phoenix creating its nest from where it lights itself on fire to burn the old and allow the new to emerge from the fire and the ashes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to renew myself within and through self-forgiveness and practical application of living change and to within that have accepted and allowed myself to remain existing in and as the old, as a shadow, as a ghost, not actually living or breathing here, because I have remained and held myself preoccupied with and within the past in my mind as thoughts about what could have been, what should have been, what should not have been instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I can only move myself here, through letting go of the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist building the nest of my fire of rebirth as writing and bringing here the relevant words for me to face and forgive, within fearing and anticipating pain and suffering in the actual burning of myself as the past through self-forgiveness and thus within that, have accepted and allowed myself to justify not changing myself, not re-birthing myself, not renewing myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify not changing myself, not embracing the complete and total letting go of the past as what was so as to renew myself, through, by and within fear of getting burned – which is fear of facing myself in self-honesty as who, what and how I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and fear of the actual change within letting go and not knowing who or what I will become or emerge as

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I cannot avoid or escape the pain and suffering as the manifested consequence that I have accumulated and required for myself to walk through as the flames through which I must purify myself to start anew – and that by holding onto the past and myself within it, I am in fact allowing myself to remain in suffering and pain and abuse, instead of simply once and for all walk through the flames and allow myself to burn myself down to the ground as all and everything I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in and as – so that I can stand myself up anew

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist and refuse changing myself by and within holding onto the past, through participating in memories and automated patterns based on memories and past experiences and to within that hold myself enslaved to and within a one-dimensional reality in my mind of and as a delusion about who and what I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can redeem the past by holding onto it, instead of allowing myself to realize and walk through – that what is done, is done and I am here and that I can only walk from here, change myself here, correct myself here

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize, that for me to re-birth myself I must light myself on fire as the letting go of the past through burning away what was and that this will and cannot happen by itself, without me in fact directing myself to change

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, as I walk through the day, when I am allowing and have allowed myself to participate here, within walking in and as the past, through directly accessing memories or through walking based on a self-acceptance, definitions and expectancy to myself and the world based on the past – and to within that moment, direct myself to let go of and release myself from the past

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to push myself in every moment to let go of and release myself from and as the past and to realize that the past will not go away or disappear or be released unless I directly stop participating in and from the past and bring myself here in, into and as the physical and in through self-forgiveness allow myself to face myself in self-honesty, face the manifested consequences of and as myself as the past, through which I must walk to release and let go of myself as the past

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the very manifestation of fear is to not let go of the past and to believe and accept that without holding onto the past, and myself in and as the past, I cannot exist – instead of seeing, realizing and understand that it is directly the reverse, that within allowing myself to hold onto the past as fear of losing myself, I am in fact missing myself here and now allowing myself to live

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that for me to let go of the past, I must bring the past here and face myself in and as all points of the past, so that I can directively through self-forgiveness and self-corrective application burn the past to the ground and from there emerge from the ashes anew

“Understand that the mind is used to program responses into the physical that then is accepted as the personality called self. First one removes these programs to get to the point where you were born originally and then only allow that which is best to become integrated in the body.” – Bernard Poolman

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to realize that I cannot renew myself, without facing and releasing myself from the old, as a purifying fire set alight by my very being as I move through the layers and patterns formed in and by the past to release myself from the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and accept that if I do not hold onto the past, as my memories about myself and the definitions I have made of myself because of it and the memories of past hurts through which I specifically have designed patterns to avoid experiencing by suppressing myself, and through emotional and energetic relationships with words, people, sounds, smells, forms, tastes – I will lose myself, I will not exist – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that what I am existing as in this here moment, because I have conditioned myself to and as the past only, is the past – not living here, not existing in any way whatsoever than in and through the past, as a shadow, an echo

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse and resist to let go of the past as all that I have accumulated myself into and as, as experiences, memories, personalities, relationships, patterns and stories – within fearing that if I allow myself to let go of the past, I will not know who to be, how to live in such a way that I can avoid danger as I perceive it as and within fear of not surviving in believing , accepting and experiencing that who and what I have become, is effective surviving – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I have created, formed and designed my entire existence upon the fear of losing myself, not ever stopping up and seeing that I am here, that I was never separate and that I created a separation of myself and from myself through the abdication of myself here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and accept that the only way I can effectively direct myself in the future to gain life and avoid death, is by calculating myself, my relationships, my world, what I see according to memories and past experiences instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I within living through the past, am re-creating the past over and over and never actually living or participating here and as such existing as death from the moment I was born, in the certainty that I will die, yet in the refusal to accept death and to take responsibility for how I have created and manifested myself into and as death only, never actually living here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, accept, define and experience myself only as an accumulation of memories, of knowledge, of sensory experiences that I have logged within my mind as a map that I guide myself through – but never to live, always and only to ensure that I survive, that I avoid that which I have perceived as dangers to my life – to ensure that I do not lose myself – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I have lived my entire existence within the acceptance of myself as lost through separating myself from myself here, into and as a mental delusion from which I have believed that I could regain myself, if I held onto myself, and never allowed myself to realize that it was within letting go of myself as fear, in letting go of myself as the past that I have held onto – that I could bring myself back here and realize that I am here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely on memories of past experiences, thoughts, emotions and feelings to guide myself through my participation in the world and never have allowed myself to stop up and ask myself what I am doing and if what I am doing is an effective way of living that is in fact best for all

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself the opportunity to rise from the ashes of the delusions that have been burned through self-honesty and self-realization and specifically through the support of others in assisting me to walk through the point of the manifested consequence that I had created for myself in not facing myself in self-honesty, so that I could face myself as the delusion that I had accepted and allowed myself to be and become

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the fire of burning the delusion of and as myself, personally and fearing it, as the ego fears the confrontation with the brutal truth of self as what self has accepted and allowed self to be and become – and such not allowed myself to embrace the point of fire or falling – as an opportunity to rebirth myself through the purification of the fire as myself in walking through the manifested consequence of my acceptances and allowances in self-honesty – and to take responsibility for who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and as such walk myself into the fire of purification so that I may rebirth myself here as life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to walk through the fire of purification as the self-realization, self-honesty and self-forgiveness in letting go and releasing the past and through self-responsibility stand up anew, in giving myself the gift of rebirthing myself here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to directly and indirectly participate in, create and accept hell on earth, through my refusal to walk into the fire of self-purification and the death of myself as ego, as the relationships I have created to, with and towards the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to validate and confirm for myself that all I am is ego as the accumulation of all past fears into and as a single point as a personality through which I have found an “effective” way of surviving that I now believe to be life – through refusing to create the fire, through writing and absolute self-purification in every moment – that I can burn myself in the flames of self-forgiveness and self-honesty to stand up anew and rebirth myself in every moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience, believe and accept myself to be incapable of releasing myself from the past and renewing myself, instead of seeing ,realizing and understanding that releasing the past and renewing myself is a self-honest, self-directed, common sense practical application in every moment, that I through consistency slowly but surely place myself into and as and as such change myself moment by moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto and for having automated this holding-on-to an image/definition/experience/memory and acceptance of myself as “bad” and “evil” and “not good enough” contrasted in polarity to an equal image/definition/experience/memory and acceptance of myself as “superior”, “good” and “benevolent” and as such define myself and condition myself to only accept myself as one of these polarity definitions, instead of realizing, seeing and understanding that I am all and everything and that who I am, within these polarity definitions is the creation, design and manifestation of polarity in itself – as I have designed to generate energy through friction so as to keep myself locked-into and as the mind – in fear that if I allowed myself to stop and let go of the mind, I would no longer exist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use all my resources, focus and energy on holding onto myself as the past in order to “Live”, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that only by letting go of myself as the past, as manifested into and as ego as a single personality-entity that I have defined myself according to and as, can actually begin Living here – because I am simply here, not existing dependent upon or defined through relationships with and in the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience and participate within and as an experience of frustration in experiencing that I am not effectively letting go of the past, that there is something I am missing in my self-realizations as I write out this point, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that frustration can only exist in and of the past – as all that is not in the past, is Here, as a living, physical direct manifestation with no residue of definitions according to relationships of the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately hold onto myself in and as the past – in a belief and an acceptance that if I don’t, I will not be able to calculate and calibrate my actions according to my desired and feared outcome effectively – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I have not in any way directed myself effectively within and as living in and as the past – as all I have existed as was memories and reactions upon and towards the past

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that only I can let go of the past as myself – and that when I don’t, I accept and allow myself to accept the unacceptable as the system of abuse and separation that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become – in and as greed as fear of losing myself as manifested into and as the money-system as it currently exist based on debt

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in debt as guilt and revenge towards the past, in and as a relationship with my memories that I have held onto deliberately to keep me reminded of the fears of the past that I have accepted and allowed myself to in every moment, define and control me – believing that I cannot survive without this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist, fear and believe that I will be burned and in pain if or when I walk into the fire of self-purification through self-forgiveness and brutal self-honest self-realization and as such justify why I have not accepted or allowed myself to direct myself to walk into the fire

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist, fear and believe the burning of myself as self-purification and within that allowing myself to let go of the past and allow the past to return as ashes to the earth – within fearing that I will then have lost myself, instead of seeing, realizing and understand that all I have let go of, is the delusion of myself in and as the past, the conditioning and constraint and enslavement of and as myself into and as the past and such understand and realize that I can in fact only give life to myself and myself as life, by allowing myself to burn the past in a process of self-purification, wherein and through I, as the ashes, return to the earth to rebirth myself as life anew

The question I am asking myself is: how do I renew myself? How do I walk into the fire as the manifested consequences of my total accumulation of the past, of what I have accepted and allowed – so as to burn the past and purify myself through the flames of self-honesty and self-forgiveness into and as the self-corrective application of living change through standing up from the ashes?

I commit myself, to as I live and breathe here, to identify and investigate all parts and points from and in which I am allowing myself to live, see, breathe through and as the past only and to as such stop – forgive and release myself from the past, and in that walking directly to the self-corrective application of living the change of stopping myself as living in, by and through the past

I commit myself to create for myself the fire upon which I will burn myself as the past as ego, as memories through a process of purification in writing, where every writing I place and direct and every word I write to purify myself as the past, is the practical formation of the fire that I will burn myself through – without fear – walking straight into the fire of purification as self-forgiveness and brutal self-honesty

I commit myself to walk the living change and application of the realization that all that is not simply me here participating directly in and as the physical reality here, then I am participating in, as and from my mind – and as such from a starting-point of self-delusion and enslavement – and as such when and as I see and realize that I am participating in a point/experience that is not physical – I stop. I breathe and I bring myself back here.

I commit myself to walk into and through the fire of self-purification in and as self-forgiveness and brutal self-honesty and to allow myself to let go of the past as myself, as ego, as memories in allowing myself as the past to burn and once again return to the ashes of the earth that I am one and equal with here

I commit myself to rise from the ashes of my fire of self-purification and to stand up anew and to apply for, as and within myself this process of self-purification as self-rebirth until I have purified all memories, the past in and as its totality and I stand here as a completely new being birthed from the fire of my self-purification

I commit myself to let go of the past – to let go of all definitions, images, ideals, beliefs, ideas, feelings, emotions, reactions, memories, knowledge, experiences that I have defined and confined myself within and through – one by one practically here in my daily participation as I see and realize each pattern and each layer of myself as the past as who and how I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and such release myself from the past as myself – in facing myself and in taking self-responsibility for who and what and how I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become

I commit myself to dare myself to walk into the fire of self-purification and to support myself in doing so, by building the fire for myself through writing and seeing myself here in self-honesty

I commit myself to live as a phoenix through and within which I specifically and directively rebirth myself through the fire of purification that is self-forgiveness and self-honesty and to through from the ashes, walk myself into and as self-correction as the living change

Tags: Desteni, Desteni Group, Desteni I Process, Equality, Oneness, Phoenix, Phoenix rising from the ashes, Purification, Rebirth, Reborn
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2012 – What can We Learn from The Atlanteans?

February 10, 2012 in World Exposed Blog

Original Artwork by Anna Brix Thomsen

In this fascinating interview done by a female Atlantean that share the story of how Atlantis existed and how the beings there existed in a form of ‘Oneness’ with all of existence. It is fascinating to hear about pre-earth history when one has gotten used to a certain way of understanding the history of the universe, and it can seem “out there”, yet at the same time, once listening it is as though all the pieces to the puzzle of “who are we?” and “where did we come from?” falls into place in a way that is so familiar that it is undoubtedly certain that this really happened.

The way the Atlantean describe how they existed as Sound, as the very essence of Life-Substance is quite fascinating as well and the only way to be able to really Hear, is by being Here – letting go of precognition and preconceptions about science, nature and the history of the earth. What unfolds is an entirely new (yet familiar) perspective on existence and on the substance that is our lives and beingness. I listened to it while I was on the bus home from Pilates and while I was doing dishes on my telephone. I find it quite enjoyable to listen to interviews and recordings while I move myself physically.

If you have not yet listened to the interview, I suggest doing so as I will be basing this article on points mentioned in the interview. It is placed exclusively on Youtube for FREE here and you are welcome to download it as well.

So – what can we learn from the Atlanteans?

As I listened to the interview, there was particularly one point that stood out. That was when she spoke about how their very nature and existence within and as themselves consisted of and existed within honoring life, honoring all life-forms and beings, including themselves. She described how they exited in gratefulness to be here and within that enjoyed themselves as life.

To maintain this ‘harmony’, they stood as the ‘aligners’ if there were any discrepancies happening through-out existence, because as all of existence was connected in ‘oneness’, a discrepancy, however minute and subtle would or could create rippleffects (or consequences) through-out existence and the very substance of life.

So the Atlanteans stood as that point of alignment where they would bring a point back to equilibrium and they would do so in realizing and standing within self-responsibility in respect of life as themselves, in honor of life as themselves. To be able to continue living as such, in curiosity and wholeness, they made certain that all points were directed and solved immediately.

It is quite clear, when looking at humanity and how we currently exist, that we are not living as the Atlanteans. We do not direct our conflicts and discrepancies immediately, but instead we allow them to create ripple-effects that have massive consequences for ourselves, our relationships with other human beings and in the world as a whole. Why do wars exist? Why do people suddenly explode and kill each other in rage? Why are children being abused from an early age while no one intervenes before it is too late?

What we are doing is exactly not honoring the life that is ourselves and each other, realizing that if we want to live in a world of harmony, where everyone lives a dignified life in self-enjoyment, being able to explore themselves and what is here in curiosity. We are not grateful for being here – in fact many human beings experience and express the exact opposite as whining and complaining and gossiping to each other and within and as their own minds, being unsatisfied, yet not being willing to change themselves or what is here.

So this is what we can learn from the Atlanteans – that it IS possible to live in a way that is Best for All Life, Equal and One, if we honor ourselves as life and take Equal Self-Responsibility.

Now – this interview by the Atlanteans is the first, in which they share who they were and how they existed. As mentioned by the Being in the video, in the next interview she shares how what we now know as ourselves, as mankind was developed, exactly through allowing conflict to spread and create separation.

If we are serious about changing the world, within seeing that what is here now is unacceptable, we require SEEING in self-honesty who and what we are now and how we each participate in creating the whole that is here, but we also require to understand the process with and through which we got here – so that all parts can be brought up to the SURE-FACE and we can in fact direct ourselves and this world in a way where we again start honoring ourselves as Life.

Join Desteni as we embark on the journey that is discovering and unveiling ourselves as Life.

Participate in the movement for an Equal Money System, that through a practical and democratic process will ensure that we bring back an equilibrium and harmony to the world – where all stand for life, as what is Best for All, Equal and One.

Thank you.

See the rest of the series here:

Atlanteans – Purpose and Creation – Part 2

Atlanteans – Civilization on land and water – Part 3

Atlanteans – The Emergence of Young Atlanteans – Part 4

Atlanteans – The Beginning of the END – part 5

Atlanteans – The Merging – Part 6

Atlanteans – The Evolution of Separation – Part 7

Atlanteans – Seeing Here – Part 8

Atlanteans – The Cross – Part 9

Atlanteans — The Decision – Part 10

Atlanteans – The Friction — Part 11

Atlanteans – Isolation – Part 12

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Tags: Ancient Civilization, Atlantean, Atlantis, Desteni2012, Equal Money System, History of Mankind, Lemuria, Oneness, Prehistory, Sumerian
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2012 – How I was able to hear the Desteni Message

January 27, 2012 in Anna's Process Blog, Uncategorized

I heard the message of Desteni because I had no other choice. I was fucked. I was at a literal dead end in my life where I could not move or go further. I had been practicing spirituality for some years along with various personal development techniques. And in my mind, I was doing this out of a noble purpose of saving humanity and the planet, but really it was because I was trying to simultaneously save and escape from myself.

As most people, I had since I was a child been running and hiding from myself, thrusting myself into the future every time I faced a point that was emotionally painful or difficult, as a self-made survival mechanism to not have to face myself and my actual experience of and as myself. But no matter what I did, I kept catching up with myself. It felt like I had tried EVERYTHING.

Eventually I got (conveniently) convinced that it was my personality and physical body that was the problem along with the world-system and I believed that I had to purify myself, by removing myself from everything that was of “low energy” so that I could raise up to the occasion of ascending myself into the higher realms of which I had absolutely no idea, but which I imagined would be a hell of a lot better than my old fucking self.

So I tried everything to get rid of myself and no matter what I did, I just kept coming back. I tried meditation and I did also have some of those “extraordinary” experiences that make us (conveniently) believe that we are special and chosen and that if we just wait long enough, we will be beamed up to some unknown place of rainbows and eternal sunshine. I dried getting Deekshs that are these blessings given to you by someone that has been enlightened to “oneness” by Amma, a self-proclaimed Indian avatar, every Tuesday. I followed a global ascension group that had its own channeler and was close to travel with them around the world, but eventually I ended up in a group that used psychedelics to transcend. After inner journeys on mushrooms, acid, DMT trips and Ayahuasca, I kept having the same “realization” that we are all one. But no matter how many times I “realized” this, I could not make it real for myself. I could not make myself really One with everything at a physical and fundamental level. I kept experiencing fears and desires and judgments and I kept judging myself and no matter how many visualizations I did and even as I removed myself from the system by selling all my stuff and moving into a wooden caravan, I could not get rid of me.

So one day, I felt frustrated and confused that no matter what I did, I did not seem to move anywhere. All I wanted was to go into the woods and transform myself to a bird and fly away. So I took stock of all the things I had participated in throughout my process since I was 15 and had started the process of what I believed to be my spiritual ascension. I looked at all the techniques and books and crystals and seminars that I had invested in, all the groups and friends and lovers I had talked with for hours and I asked myself: out of all this, what is the one point that has ever made me accelerate the most?

And when I looked back at my time-line, there was only one point that stood out. When I was around 16, I had made the decision for myself to be 100% honest with myself and not allow myself to have any taboos or secrets inside myself. And this – this single decision by a teenager was the one thing that I could see had fundamentally changed me. I was in absolute shock. Here I had spent years searching for the truth, buying all these solutions that never lasted and where I always came back to my old shitty self, no matter how good I tried to be or how enlightened I envisioned myself as. And in the end, simple Self-Honesty that I myself had generated in a moment I had never thought about since was THE one point that I had changed myself through.

So from that day, I decided that from now on, I would walk my own self-honesty. Obviously as for most humans, most of my time went with conjuring up lies and self-deception in my mind, but I was not aware of that at the time, all I knew was that I had found a connection to myself again, but the self that I had connected to, was broken, confused and feeling totally and utterly lost.

All my beliefs had been shattered and all I had to fall back on was spirituality. Because I was sure as hell not going to participate “in the system”, which I blamed for everything that was wrong with me and the world. So I had my back up against the wall. I started to see how fake my environment was, how fake the partying and activism was, how fake my relationship was and how broken I and everything around me was.

One day I was babysitting two of my friends, who were on two different drugs tripping out, one on one bed and the other on another bed. I was merely there to make sure that nothing went wrong. That night I saw and browsed YouTube for the 108th time for DNA activation and ascension videos, ANYTHING that could give me a clue as to what the fuck was going on and how the fuck I could change myself. And I saw the thumbnail of the blond girl, that thumbnail that I had browsed over many times, but never been really interested in seeing, because I thought it had to do with aliens and conspiracy theories which I thought was stupid (lol – while DNA activation was clearly not).

But I was tired of browsing all these videos that I had seen 100 times before, so I clicked on a video called “I was an alien killed on earth” – and from that moment on, my entire life was changed. There was not a shadow in my mind that this was real, that this being is telling it like it is and it was like taking a shower for the first time in 50 years. I was cleansing, fresh and I felt cleaned by it. It spoke directly, no bullshit vague romance shit and it was scary-as-hell-in-your-face and it was exactly matching that realization I had had about self-honesty – that the most important thing to do here, is to be 100 % self-honest. That is how you stop this fucking Paris wheel from spinning.

And what Desteni said, what no one ever had said to me in my entire life was: you are responsible for this. It is because of you and who and how you have allowed yourself to exist that the world is what it is, why you are who you are.

You are responsible.

And it was a shock, but it was also an experience of coming home – coming home to reality – for the first time in my entire life, there would be no more secrets, everything finally made sense, no more mysteries, no more myths or fairytales – all would be revealed – by and as myself.

That night I did not sleep. I watched maybe 40 Desteni videos and when my friends woke up, I felt completely and utterly transformed. On one hand it was like I had no ground under my feet and was floating above the ground, but on the other I felt grounded more so than ever before. And from there I started walking, watching the videos, reading the articles on the website and quickly joined the forum where I was introduced to Self-Forgiveness.

I started realizing that I COULD change myself, but that I had in fact prevented myself to – simply because I did not want to face myself, I was shit scared of facing myself after having been hiding from myself for so many years – and as such, because I did not take self-responsibility for myself, I could not change – because all I was, was a puppet, an organic robot, existing to feed the mind. So now I am walking the Desteni I Process, where I start understanding how I have created myself, so that I can stop, stand up and change – it is really THAT simple. The only catch is that we have to do it ourselves. No one can be Self-Honest for me.

The reason why I listened to Desteni was primarily because Sunette, who I at the time knew as “that blond girl”, constantly popped up on my screen. She was there and she would not go away and she would keep popping up until would Dare to listen. And that is what Desteni is here for. That is why we are Destonians. I am grateful for all the Destonians that have walked before me and that are Walking-with, making sure that the message gets out to all corners of the world, for all beings to have the opportunity to stand up and to get the support and assistance that we have been given and that we are giving each other on a daily basis.

We’ve got a story to tell and it is about all of us, you included and how we have separated ourselves to such an extent from ourselves, that we have created a reality for ourselves of utter brutality, evil and abuse. The mind, to which we have abdicated ourselves exist as an entire system of self-defense, defending that part of ourselves that is fear of losing – and that part will do, say, be, become, feel, kill, fuck anything and anyone to get what it want, because that is all it exists as, all it can ever be.
So it is up to us, to SEE ourselves, to DARE to LISTEN, to FACE ourselves – and to stand up within and as the self-responsibility that WE are the CREATORS of this WORLD, this reality and ourselves. And nothing will change or go away – until we change ourselves.

So if you dare to be self-honest, you can give not only yourself, but all of humanity a gift of a life-time. To change what is here once and for all.

At Desteni – we are going to be in your face, every day humanity, from here on out, until we stop, stand up and change.

We are going to keep popping up, until each and every single human being starts listening.

Because only when all walk together as equal, can we stand as One.

Walk with Desteni – We are not going to walk away.

My name is Anna Brix Thomsen and I am Destonian.

Tags: Amma, Ascension, Desteni I Process, Desteni Message, Desteni2012, DNA Activation, Equal Money System, Equality and Oneness, Oneness, Spirituality
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I was DECEIVED BY ECKHART TOLLE (True Story)

November 17, 2011 in Anna's Process Blog

A couple of years ago, I had the opportunity to join Eckhart Tolle, as he came to speak in Denmark. My friend and I saw that he was coming several months prior to that and decided to go and see him and hopefully talk to him. In spite of both of us being quite poor, my friend was a single mother with a small child and I was a student, we saved up the equivalent of 250 Euro or 370 US $ that the ticket to see Tolle costed. Both of us had prior to this read “The Power of Now” and at that stage I had started reading “A New Earth” as well. So you can say that we were hardcore Tolle fans, although my friend was (and as far as I know still is) a bigger fan than me. I was fascinated by the story of how Eckhart Tolle became Eckhart Tolle, meaning how he got from being a German College nobody to being a spiritual guide for millions of people (not to mention a very rich man). At the time I was very interested in disengaging the personality as I perceived to be in the way of “the real me”. Tolle both supported that view, but also nuanced it by saying that we should accept ourselves unconditionally. That sounded good to me. However what I have only realized recently, was that I was even more fascinated by how Tolle had achieved the status he had. I secretly desired becoming a guru, a superhero, a star and of course having a lot of money, in such a way where no one would blame me for it and where I would go to sleep with a good conscience. If there are any readers out there who are familiar with Tolle’s work and life (perhaps more than me), you will know that he was a university professor teaching in Germany at the time where he had his “enlightening” break-through. He was miserable with his life, at the brink of suicide and suddenly he experienced himself breaking into two parts. After that he was more or less enlightened and the story goes that he spent the next two years or so in a state of permanent bliss, sitting on a park bench. He sat there until a publisher, who had felt drawn to him, came and gave him a lot of money and an opportunity to write a book. (At least that is how I remember reading the story) I went to Tolle’s website to double check this story and here the description is even more vauge:

“At the age of 29, a profound inner transformation radically changed the course of his life. The next few years were devoted to understanding, integrating and deepening that transformation, which marked the beginning of an intense inward journey.”

So he had this amazing experience, which I was extremely fascinated of. In my eyes he had so easily broken free of the chains of personality, experience and even the runt of an everyday life. So he became my roll model in that sense, rather than his teachings actually “speaking” to me. Believe me, I tried. I tried feeling it, being it and I did practice the exercises that Tolle suggested. But looking back at my experiences with Tolle, it was as much an inner as an outer scam. Back to the day where I ‘met’ Eckhart Tolle. My friend and I arrived at the place where Tolle would speak, which was a huge concert hall in the center of Copenhagen. Thousands of people were there, mostly women, and some men and slowly the room filled up. I applied within myself a reverent expression, and I saw others doing the same. At the same time I was struggling inside myself with “feeling it”. I had previously gone to spiritual conventions and often felt cheated in that most of it were clearly created for profit, yet pretending to be “enlightened” and benevolent. It made me sick, but I kept going. I had a similar experiences with the Tolle event, especially cause I had spent so much money on seeing him. So I mustered a serene an calm feeling and sat down waiting for “the man himself to arrive”. I could see below me further down on the front seats a row of celebrities that I knew from TV and the tabloids. They also looked very serene, yet in an elitist “front-row” kind of way. If I recall correctly, one of them was wearing sunglasses. Then he came out, Tolle and he talked and it was difficult to hear what he was saying. I tried getting some of his energy, by sort of awkwardly ”opening myself up” to him, but it did not really work. I could not feel it and afterwards I blamed myself and believed that there was something wrong with me because I was not able to “feel it” and get a profound spiritual experience from listening to Tolle (and after having paid that much money). Soon after that, I stopped reading Tolle’s books and I slowly but surely started realizing how I had in fact deceived myself into a major self-delusion through the “support” of Eckhart Tolle’s books and the entire movement that he represented. I realized that what I required was to be self-honest with and as myself. That is another story. Now – if one goes to Tolle’s website, the very first point that springs in ones eyes, is the sentence “Creating a new world together”. When I was a Tolle-Follower, I believed that we were in fact changing the world, through following Tolle, through meditating and “accepting myself unconditionally” and essentially applying the Buddhist principle of avoiding desires and separating oneself from the mental experience of self. However, if we have a self-honest look at the world – which is simply to look at what is here, physically and in fact – it is clear that the world is not going to change from us drawing ourselves back into ourselves and refrain from standing self-responsible for this world through separating ourselves from what is Here. I realized this within and as myself, when I started simply applying self-honesty and for the first time in years were able to move myself and accelerate my process. Until then I had followed teachings such as Tolle’s that actually supports people to separating themselves from who and as how they’ve allowed themselves to exist and within that supporting them to abdicate self-responsibility. At the same time there is an entire hype that “we ARE changing the world” and “we ARE raising consciousness” – and it was within that I started blaming myself because I was not “feeling it”. No wonder I was not feeling it – it is not real. Changing reality starts with actually changing the reality of and as ourselves within standing self-responsible for all and everything we exist within and as – to do this we require to bring all of ourselves together, not to separate ourselves into parts – which is ironic as Tolle and the entire movement promotes ‘oneness’ – but the problem is that this oneness is disregarding equality and thereby ends up being oneness of and as deception – a coming together in a mutal deceptive oneness. This can clearly be seen within my ‘encounter’ with Eckhart Tolle – how more than 2000 people were gathered, all paying a large sum of money simply to hear Tolle speak. It can also be seen within how it was pop culture celebrities for whom the front rows were reserved for. It can also be seen within my experience of pretentious serenity and reverence that I most likely shared with every other person in that room. Where is “the world” that we are apparently changing in any of this? Where is it really in Tolle’s words? When do any of the Tolle followers actually stand up for Life in self-honesty? Several videos on Youtube from different (Destonian) users criticizing Tolle has been removed from Youtube on a claim of Copyright infringement from the “Tolle Movement” – since Youtube complied and since there is an industry of spirituality behind Tolle, we can (at least polemically) conclude that this means that one is not allowed to question ’the establishment’ of capitalist-lightworkers because within doing so, one might risk to expose the scam that spirituality is and has become. I was deceived by Eckhart Tolle – but I was really deceived by myself. I allowed myself to deceive myself because I preferred having closed eyes. I preferred a program where I could conveniently within a belief that I was changing the world, sustained by an millions of people around the world doing the same (albeit only the middleclass Elite) yet continue to exist in and as abdication of self-responsibility. Eckhart Tolle as such ironically represents the system of inequality, deception and separation. Therefore, when you got a capitalist-lightworker like Echart Tolle against you, you know you’re in the ‘right spot’ and should simply keep on doing what you are doing. I AM ONE VOTE FOR A DIRECT WORLD – WITH NO SPIRITUAL MIDDLE-MEN I AM ONE VOTE FOR AN EQUAL MONEY SYSTEM – TO ENSURE THAT THE ONENESS WE LIVE, IS EQUAL AND DIGNIFIED FOR ALL LIFE. I AM ONE VOTE FOR A HUMAN BEING THAT VALUES LIFE AS LIFE

Tags: Desteni Group, Destonians, Eckhart Tolle, Enlightenment, Equal Money System, Equality, guru, Know how, Oneness, Oprah Winfrey, Spiritual Teachings
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Life is One Moment (via Blog For Equality)

June 7, 2011 in Anna's Process Blog

A perspective: Life as a moment. If we consider Life as each moment that comes and goes here, every moment that we succumb or give-into temptations of following old habits, especially those that are not what is best for all, is a betrayal of Life. In other words, every moment we fall back into old habits, we are betraying ourselves as who we really are. I often meet myself with a belief/conviction that if I do something practical in every momen … Read More

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Tags: Desteni, Desteni Group, Desteni I Process, Destonian, Equal Money System, Oneness
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Poor or Rich depends on your location

May 7, 2010 in Equal Money Blog

In an interview with the Danish newspaper Information from the 24/25 April 2010, a Politician from the Socialistic Peoples party (S.F) called Özlem Cekic said that she wants the party to increase their focus on benefitting the mentally ill, the people who are on premature retirement and make decrease poverty. She said: ‘We are not and should not be a party that just benefits the middleclass’. But is that not exactly what S.F are doing? One of the arguments is that they to get influence and thereby be able to support the poor, has to lean more towards the middle where the votes are to thereby reserve a place in the government. First of all it is directly throwing in the towel to wish to ‘decrease poverty’, in that it does not only imply an accept of the already existing poverty, but also settling with only taking partial responsibility, which could be argued as not taking responsibility at all. This is also shown in the party’s politics in this area in their program, where one of their initiatives to decrease poverty is to ensure that all children in Denmark get a Christmas present. This is a hypocritical approach to poverty as it completely overlooks the fact that there are over a billon people living in starvation, among who are many children. There are two explanations for why the party is choosing this strategy. One is the argument that to make a difference in this world, one has to first take care of ones own. The problem with that is just that the proportions are mildly put, ‘out of focus’. What is called poverty in Denmark, is called Elite or middleclass in countries where most people live for less than two dollars a day. There are two billon of those in the world. The other is the argument that the voters only care about themselves and want a politics that ensures that they can give their child a Christmas present. This is understandable, but not an excuse. The Socialistic Peoples party can not promote themselves as the ‘watchdog of the weak’, without being clear about who the ‘weak’ actually are, and to target their politics where it counts, which is towards a global inequality and not only towards the individual Danish citizens right to safety and welfare. S.F has a responsibility to what is going on in the world, as do all politicians, but the question is if there is actual politics left in the party that for the last fifty years has been ‘fighting for the weak’, or if they simply exist as an automated pong to the ping politics of the right wing and thereby do not have any real intentions of making a difference. It sounds tough and it is not popular to say out loud, but the fact of the matter is that what is considered middle class in Denmark, is middle class in the rest of the world, where poverty is about starving till you die and not about whether or not you can buy your child a Christmas present. This is not to say that inequality is not relevant in Denmark or that the people who are poor I Denmark are not suffering. This is simply about addressing the fact that if we really want to change a world that is fundamentally based on inequality and exploitation by the rich of the poor, it requires a Global initiative that not only focuses on decreasing poverty, but on Stopping it all together, where we realize that we are a part of a whole with a common Responsibility, that includes the whole world and where political initiative is not only about increasing the individual’s personal happiness and wellbeing, but about creating a world that is acceptable to live in for All.

The Socialistic Peoples Party in Denmark, which is a leftwing libertarian party is becoming increasingly more popular, as the current government (right wing liberalists and conservatives) is being criticized for their handling of the economic crisis. The party started as a communist party and has changed course, especially with their acceptance of the European Union. They are now preparing to enter the government at the coming election and recently had their annual party meeting, where they discussed their party program.

Tags: Business Executives, Corporate Law, Corporations, Earth, Environment, Equality, Finance, Industrial Countries, Oneness, Political parties, Politics, Poverty, Rich, Social welfare, Trust, Wealth, Work Encvironment
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Companies that Support Equality

May 7, 2010 in Equal Money Blog

Can the public sphere of politics, economy and legislation actually learn something from the way a business is being run? Most would say no – as corporations are on the front line when it comes to pollution, unequal work environments etc. And also as most of the corporations that exist, are solely focused on profit, however ‘green’ they might claim to be. But there are actually companies that are based on or developing new ways of working from a perspective of Equality. One of those companies is the very successful corporation behind the Gore-tex fabric. In this company there are no bosses or employees. Everyone working there are associates and are expected to take self-responsibility with regards to the work they are doing. This creates a unique work environment for everyone involved and their results are unprecedented. When discussing the foundation for creating a new political, social and financial system of Equality – a model like W.L Gore’s might be worthy considering. ‘Famous for tearing up the management rulebook, WL Gore operates without bosses in an environment where trust, freedom and innovation are prized. Little surprise then that the hi-tech pioneer’s staff are so loyal’ ‘In 2009, for the twelfth consecutive year, W. L. Gore & Associates, Inc. earned a position on Fortune magazine’s annual list of the U.S. “100 Best Companies to Work For.”[6] Its European operations have also earned similar honors. Gore UK has been named seven times by London’s The Sunday Times as one of the “Best Companies to Work For.”[7] In 2009, Gore Germany ranked eighth in the “100 Best Places to Work in Germany” among mid-sized companies.[8] Gore Italy ranked sixth among the “35 Best Places to Work in Italy.”[9] Gore France topped the list of “Best Workplaces in France”[10] while Gore Scandinavia ranked fourth among small companies on the list of “Best Workplaces in Sweden.”[11] Gore was listed 12th on the “50 Best Large Workplaces in Europe 2009.”[12] An important factor in this recognition is Gore’s unique culture, which evolved from the company’s success with small teams during its early years. This approach to business was based on Bill Gore’s experience with “task force teams” while he was employed at the DuPont Company. Such groups were formed at DuPont on an ad hoc basis to attack problem situations. They were usually multidisciplinary and typically operated for short periods of time outside of the company’s formal management hierarchy. Bill Gore first presented the concept of a “lattice” organization to Gore associates in 1967. He later refined his ideas and presented what he termed “culture principles” in a paper entitled “The Lattice Organization – A Philosophy of Enterprise.” It was distributed to Gore associates in 1976.[13] Unlike the traditional management structure that Bill Gore had experienced at DuPont, he proposed a flat, lattice-like organizational structure where everyone shares the same title of “associate.” There are neither chains of command nor predetermined channels of communication. Leaders replace the idea of “bosses.” Associates choose to follow leaders rather than have bosses assigned to them. Associate contribution reviews are based on a peer-level rating system. Bill Gore articulated four culture principles that he called freedom, fairness, commitment and waterline: * Associates have the freedom to encourage, help, and allow other associates to grow in knowledge, skill, and scope of responsibility * Associates should demonstrate fairness to each other and everyone with whom they come in contact * Associates are provided the ability to make one’s own commitments and are expected to keep them * A waterline situation involves consultation with other associates before undertaking actions that could impact the reputation or profitability of the company and otherwise “sink the ship.” In the lattice organization, associates are encouraged to communicate directly with each other and are accountable to fellow members of their teams. Hands-on product innovation and prototyping are encouraged. Teams typically organize around opportunities, new product concepts, or businesses. As teams evolve, leaders frequently emerge as they gain followership. This unusual organizational structure and culture has been shown to be a significant contributor to associate satisfaction and retention.[14]‘

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/W._L._Gore_and_Associates#Gore_Culture

http://www.director.co.uk/MAGAZINE/2010/2_Feb/WLGore_63_06.html

Mind & Body – Detox and Deconstruction

March 11, 2010 in Anna's Process Blog

So Im now a month into, a little over a month not smoking and on you can call it rehab in terms of eating with my emotions, eating to get high, eating to get energy and basically stimulating myself to get energy and to… well thats what Ive Realized after I started the diet and stopped smoking, because I have constant craving for smoking, eating, speaking, watching, basically anything that can give me the sense of being filled up or filling myself up, anything that is not just me Here keeping occupied, and its interesting because Ive noticed that there are like specific points, where I wanna smoke, it is particularly if I get stressed or if I get scared then I wanna smoke. Which could signify that that is where Ive not been able with stuff myself and have used cigarettes to control my reality and to give me a sense of comfort and safety within my world. So… something I find interesting is that when I first stopped smoking and I went on this eating rehab, detoxification programme, I thought that it was only gonna be a face or a while and then I would be able to go back to my habits, and Ive that thats not so that this is a complete change of, its basically the beginning of a complete change of who I am, which is going to have to Stand. Im not saying that I might not eat differently at some point, but at this point, what I realize is that the way Ive been attached to eating, the way Ive been eating, the way Ive been drinking, the way Ive been stimulating myself, is so completely engrained within me, where Ive diluted myself and been dishonest with myself and made excuses and justifications so I cant possibly go back to just eat what I want to, because its not what I want to. How I taste, what I feel like eating, feeling of hunger, of thirst its not real. Its not based on the body saying: I need nutrition now, I Require fuel to be able to function. So Ive basically fucked up my whole physical system in terms of making it into a mind-fuelling system, which we obviously have in other perspectives as well, but this is like very specific, like I said: eating with my emotions. And even now after a month, I find it extremely difficult and Im surprised how difficult it is. At the same time, Im determined. Im going to, Im going through it, Im walking through it, Im doing it but every day I Realize something about how intense and how attached this system is within me. I dont even know who I am, because how can I know who I am, when I experience a craving for something and it gives me a stomach ache, and its basically not optimal in any way for body, how can I say I know who I am, I mean I know who I am as an addict, I know who… I know what satisfies my addiction. I know what my addiction requires, to be able to sustain itself, because thats the tricky part it is to, for the addiction to sustain itself, its not to actually get rid of the craving. I realized earlier today as I was scratching a mosquito bite, that its basically the same principle the more you scratch, the more it itches.

Tags: addictions, anxiety, attractive, beautiful, beauty, body, cigarettes, dependency, depression, diet, drugs, emotions, Equality, fear, food, Future, looks, love, mental problems, Oneness, quitting smoking, rehab, self trust, smoking, standing up, Structural Resonance Alignment
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