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The Redundancy of Confession before Change: DAY 179

March 3, 2013 in Anna's Journey to Life

The Redundancy of Confession before Change: DAY 179A couple of days ago I posted a blog about shame. The day after I wrote about the doubt I’ve been experiencing after posting that first blog. Now yesterday a point was brought to my attention with regards to how it has been found that when you announce your goals you are less likely to achieve them because you’d then already experienced a sense of achievement. As such it has been suggested to keep one’s goals to oneself until one is certain that one stands within living out these goals and can then share the process one has walked so others may find assistance and support through that. Now – I’ve done this when I stopped smoking, deliberately also so as to not involve anyone else in my decision and to make sure that I simply walk the point by myself. This I found was very effective and I recommend it to anyone who is standing in the process of making such decisions of setting a goal or making a change in one’s life; to if/as it is practical walk the point of change firstly with oneself. Why I am saying “if/as it is practical” is because there can/could be situations where one for whatever reason would require involving others and so it is merely to suggest that it is not a point set in stone. Obviously one has to consider it in context to one’s life in general and the circumstances one is facing.

Right before I posted this blog about shame the other day, I was hesitant towards pushing the ‘upload’ button and I considered whether it had perhaps been best to walk the point with myself alone. I decided to publish the blog from amongst other points a starting-point of wanting to ‘come forward’ and as I was writing the blog I even thought about this point that has come up several times, the ‘need’ to confess. And so what is confession really? This is what I’ve understood so far: Catholics go to church to confess their sins and are ‘punished’ with having to say Hail Mary fifty times or something. Then they’re cleansed of their sins and can go out with ‘good conscience’. But the odds are that most of them commit sin again and as such the confession was absolutely redundant and even took part in allowing the person to keep sinning because it tacitly endorsed it. In this post on a website called ‘Catholic online‘ the purpose with confession is described:

“Be truly sorry for your sins. The essential act of Penance, on the part of the penitent, is contrition, a clear and decisive rejection of the sin committed, together with a resolution not to commit it again, out of the love one has for God and which is reborn with repentance. The resolution to avoid committing these sins in the future (amendment) is a sure sign that your sorrow is genuine and authentic. This does not mean that a promise never to fall again into sin is necessary. A resolution to try to avoid the near occasions of sin suffices for true repentance. God’s grace in cooperation with the intention to rectify your life will give you the strength to resist and overcome temptation in the future.”

In 1 John 2:1 it says: “My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous.”

1352002 861 574 The Redundancy of Confession before Change: DAY 179See? It doesn’t make any sense. Because if god is the one that has created you, he has created sin or has made the decision that some actions are sinful. So why do you then need to go to god for forgiveness? How can sin and forgiveness exist simultaneously? What I’ve seen is that confession means that one is in separation from the actual point one is apparently confessing about. Because one is confessing so that god can forgive one for one’s sins, which would place one in a position of inferiority to god as though one is unable to judge one’s own actions and change oneself according to what is best and what is not best. This actually correlates quite well with how I experienced doubt after having posted the blog on shame in how I was waiting for ‘confirmation’ almost as whether I would be forgiven or not. But as we know: there is no forgiveness but self-forgiveness. Just like people don’t change after going to confession in church. It doesn’t work because they did not stand as the starting-point of their own actions in understanding in full detail why they did what they did and as such in taking self-responsibility enabling themselves to in fact change. So this is no different if I write a confession in my blogs. And I saw that I had had this starting-point of proving myself and forcing myself through to the point of shame. I’ve spent days trying to figure out why I don’t feel real shame and I simply have not been able to force it through my body. And what I’ve come to see is: It is what it is. Meaning, what is here is what is here. So I don’t encompass a profound change through which I bring forth change. That is certainly fucked up. I can see that. At least I can see that.

So as I wrote in the blog about shame, the shame point is for me a point of return to the darkness of myself, a form of reset in determining where I stand, how I stand and who I stand as. I considered taking the blog down again, considering how it was not completely clear to me as something I had walked with myself before sharing it. But I decided to leave it up and to instead now share what I’ve faced and walked since posting the blog. And I will return to myself and walking the points with myself and come and share when appropriate to do so here. So what I mean to say is that it is not so that what I posted was ‘wrong’. I simply see that I require being more attentive towards which writings I publish and which I don’t, so that I make sure that what I do post is assisting for me and for others. And I see that I also require walking this point of confession in more detail as well as keep investigating the point of shame. As I walk the relationship series, I might share some of these writings as well as I walk through the points.  So in my next blog post I will begin walking self-forgiveness on the relationship point of feeling awkward around boys that I started writing out on DAY 176

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And Lead us not into Temptation, but Deliver us from Evil: Day 95

August 25, 2012 in Anna's Journey to Life

Temptation Painting Eating a Donut 57985 And Lead us not into Temptation, but Deliver us from Evil: Day 95Who is Leading us into Temptation? Who will Deliver us from Evil? What is the Evil we will be Delivered From? Continute Reading and Find out for Yourself.

 

 

I am continuing with the Temptation Character, within and as preparing myself to walk through the Addiction Character, as a specific mechanism and supporting character that plays in in how I’ve lived as an Addict.

 

 

A point I saw is how ‘temptation’ within the religious reference to the Devil and sin, is seen as something separate from us, as something that is tempting us where we’re thus not self-responsible for the temptation – and actually use that as a justification to follow the temptation. It could also be a separation as ‘biology’ for example in how people blame their ‘indiscretions’ on being drunk or on their ‘urges’ – as though that which is tempting us, is coming from outside ourselves, the devil on the shoulder. But it’s clear when looking at when I feel tempted and what I feel tempted towards, that it is myself who are doing the tempting. I am for example not tempted to do heroin or drink alcohol because that does not fit into my addiction pattern, whereas for others it might.

 

 

“In the text of the Lord’s Prayer, the King James Version uses “temptation” to translate the Greek word πειρασμός peirasmos.1 This word has nothing to do with “temptation” with moral-ethical or spiritual-eschatological overtones. It is simply “being put to test”, referring to a situation in which a person is challenged to keep the name of God honored (a reprise of the text in Matthew 6:9). Wikipedia.

 

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create, manifest and participate within and as a temptation character, specifically as a character of deliberate separation, like a demon that possesses me from outside myself, something that I’m not in control over or the directive principle behind and as such have used/abused this feature to deliberately justify for myself acting according to desires/suppressions/fears/addictions in using temptation to ‘move’ myself.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself as the creator of the temptation character and as the ‘player/actor’ of the temptation character, to deliberately justify my own self-abdication to actions of self-abuse and addiction

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I feel tempted towards doing/consuming/not doing something, that it is not myself who is doing the tempting/creating the temptation because I have deceived myself into believing and justifying for myself that it’s something else outside separate from me that is doing the tempting, like a devil/demon character or like a biological instinct that I have no control or direction over – and that I because of this justification have submitted and subjected myself to the Temptation Character, allowingit to direct me.

 

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize or understand that I am the creator/instigator/directive principle of the Temptation Character and that I am the one who makes the decision to activate an image/thought/backchat/experience within and as myself as Temptation and that I am the one that makes the decision to follow that temptation into action, even if or when it’s become automated, I am the one that has made the decision to make a character automated and to act in automated patterns of behavior, as the automation is yet another point of justification and self-manipulation into self-abdication of responsibility, because “if it’s automated, I have no control/direction and might as well give in/give up”.

 

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to legitimize for myself to follow and submit myself to automated patterns of addiction/temptation within justifying the automation point as being “impossible to stop” and “out of my hands” – when I am in fact the starting-point of automation in participating in the same pattern long enough until it becomes automated and I no longer have to make an active decision to follow it, yet fail to realize that I’ve spent years making that active decision and therefore within the automation is still the blueprint/residue of the active decision and therefore it is still 100 % my responsibility even if/when I live in a way where I have no self-control or self-directive power – because that’s how I’ve ‘wanted’ it so that I could justify my own self-abdication.

 

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize or understand that self-abuse through acting on temptations and existing in addiction, can only exist if I actively do not take self-responsibility for myself.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to define/judge/perceive temptation and the Temptation Character as a psychological ‘weakness’ within and as myself as me having ‘no backbone’ and having a ‘weak character’ when in fact, I through the Temptation Character are in full control over myself – yet only within and as a specific frame-work of existing within and as the mind with particular rules and modes and that it is not a weakness but a misrepresentation and misplacement of my directive will – which originates within and as myself as my starting-point of who and what and how I live and exist and accept myself.

 

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe/convince/tell myself that “it’s not my fault that I am being tempted, I was born this way” or “it’s my mother’s fault” or “it’s because I am genetically predisposed to wanting sugar”.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not, as soon as an image ‘pops up’ from within my mind of me moving myself from what I am participating with to doing/consuming a particular action/manifestation – stop and ask myself what it is I am doing and accepting and allowing and what it is I am attempting to manipulate myself into running away from through distracting and suppressing myself – and accordingly simply not act on the ‘impulse’ – yet also not reject it or suppress it – as I’ve seen, realized and understood that this will only make the desire/temptation stronger as I am then existing in inferiority to my temptation and as such have already abdicated myself to it, yet refuse to admit that to myself in self-honesty and as such deceive myself into believing that I am stopping – instead of simply making the directive decision of not participating, because I understand the origin point and the consequence if I do.

 

 

apple temptation And Lead us not into Temptation, but Deliver us from Evil: Day 95I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to judge/blame/resent other human beings for what I perceive in that moment, as them being the origin point/the ones responsible of my experience of temptation by for example asking me if I want a particular food that I ‘know’ I should not eat or if they are doing something that I’ve agreed with myself not to do – and as such project my own self-responsibility for the creation of the temptation character onto another, as a point outside separate from me, to deliberately abdicate self-responsibility and in fact so that I can follow through with my temptation and thus with what the purpose of the temptation is, to create inner conflict and to suppress myself and divert attention from the real issues I am facing/walking.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I created a positive relationship within myself towards the Temptation Character when I was a child and I was not allowed to eat ice cream or drink soda because I would get sick, and how I would do it anyway and deliberately defy my mom within feeling left out of for example children’s birthday parties in seeing the other children eating ice cream and drinking soda and in experiencing it as unfair that I was not allowed to and in feeling that I was being mistreated, and so I did it anyway and felt good about my own ability to act on my own to get what I wanted and where I felt superior to my mom in that I could defy her and cheat here – with the consequence of me getting sick and having severe stomach aches, which I can interestingly enough only briefly remember while I remember the temptation and desire to eat candy very well.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to activate and step into the Temptation Character specifically in moments where I am facing a point of resistance towards facing/changing myself, where I will utilize the Temptation Character to ‘intercept’ with my facing myself/changing and so also as a supportive character to the Procrastination Character where I through the Temptation Character, will make sure that I remove myself from that which I am about to Face/Change and as such step into a time-loop where I will miss a transcendence point deliberately in fear of facing/changing myself.

 

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship of support between the Temptation Character and the Addiction Character, where the Temptation Character will support the Addiction Character, through inserting temptation to do/consume that which I am addicted to, specifically within and as suppressing myself.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can ‘fight’ the Temptation Character instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that if the Temptation Character exists within and as me, it is because I have already surrendered myself to/as it and therefor fighting it is yet another act of self-manipulation where I justify acting according to temptation in experiencing that the temptation “won” and I “lost” the battle – when in fact I had already decided to “lose” so that another part of me can win: self-sabotage.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have created the Temptation Character specifically to intercept and manipulate myself to not Face or Change myself and that I, through participating in the Temptation Character will utilize my own ‘weaknesses’ and ‘weak spots’ as the relationships I’ve created towards specific foods or drugs or experiences, either as ‘forbidden’ and thereby energetically highlighted in my mind through the conflict I generate in doing that which I’m not supposed to do or in simply being the mechanism with which I step into the Addiction Character towards points of action/consumption that I’ve already abdicated myself to.

 

 

An example is that I am not tempted to drink alcohol as this is not something I’ve ever used or created a specific relationship towards. I have also stopped smoking weed within and as a directive decision and therefore I don’t experience a temptation to smoke weed. Even if/when such a thought/image ‘pops up’ I would not follow it because I have severed that relationship.

 

 

However, for example towards smoking cigarettes or eating candy, I have not yet made the directive decision to stop the addiction – and therefore the temptation is possible and probable and much more likely to pop up, because I am much more likely to follow those temptations – the more I give in, the more I will experience the temptation. But also the more I fight, the more I will experience the temptation. Only by making a directive decision to stop the addiction within understanding how and why I’ve used the particular addiction and what the consequences are and the methods I’ve manipulated myself into following the addiction – can I stop. Because then I stand one and equal with my addiction and can let it go. And as the temptation comes up as urges/images/thoughts/backchat, I simply don’t participate as I understand what it is and have decided to no longer participate and so slowly but surely the temptation lessens until it dissipates.

 

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as temptation where I have deliberately tempted others to do things, as a support for my character or where I’ve manipulated others deliberately to tempt me so that I could blame them for tempting me and abdicate self-responsibility.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship towards temptation of inner conflict/friction, where I in how I resonantly react to the word/manifestation of temptation is to want to rebel and in experiencing myself as freeing myself through acting according to temptation, in perceiving the opposite of temptation, as restraint and limitation.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame God for restricting Adam and Eve from eating from the Tree of Knowledge and for placing himself as superior over Adam and Eve and for having placed a temptation as the Tree of Knowledge in the Garden of Eden and then blaming Adam and Eve when they ate from the Tree.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to equate temptation with freeing oneself from restraint of an unfair authority, such as Adam and Eve in their relationship with God or me in my relationship with my mom.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I in the moment make the decision to follow my temptation, feel and experience a positive energetic experience within feeling that I am sinning and deliberately conning an authority outside of myself that has unfairly restricted me from acting/consuming a particular manifestation where I feel naughty and self-empowered and at the same time feel a negative energetic experience where I feel guilty and ashamed and are afraid of being punished by the authority outside, separate from me and where I hate the fact that I am just following a dictate without having any directive will, even if it is something that I know is abusive for me and my physical body.

 

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more prone to be tempted/tempting because I am a woman and thereby and within that have accepted and allowed myself to use this belief as yet another excuse/justification for me allowing myself to direct myself within temptation.

 

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to as soon as I have accepted the activated image of a particular point of consumption or action (like eating a bowl of cereal or masturbating), immediately activate a backchat and a reaction where I fight with myself in internal conversation in ‘knowing’ that I’m not supposed to do/consume this thing and then manifest a physical/energetic reaction/experience of for example letting my mouth water or feeling a tingle in my vagina, and where the moment ‘happens so fast’ that I did not even ‘notice’ the image and the backchat, but only notice the experience of ‘wanting to do this’ and thus once I am at this stage in the activation process, I have already made the decision to do it, however long I am able to hold myself off from doing i.

 

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to CONvince myself that “I am not to blame for feeling tempted” because “I couldn’t help myself” and that “I am not responsible for following my temptation experience into action” because “I am the one being tempted, I have no control over it”.

 

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there does not exist any point I feel tempted towards that is not abusive in some way – towards myself, other and the whole and that thereby the Temptation Character functions at the basis of me deliberately abusing myself in and through existing in an alternate reality with ulterior motives that is NOT to support myself to stand up as Life in Self-Dignity and Self-Honesty, but to keep me locked in and as the mind, in complete self-suppression and indignity and abdication of self-responsibility.

 

 

(I will in my next post continue with the self-corrective and commitment statements)

 

 

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Who I am as a Christian: DAY 5

April 19, 2012 in Anna's Journey to Life

shutterstock 54771055 Who I am as a Christian: DAY 5Here am investigating the label of “being a Christian” and “Christianity” as how it has existed and played a significant role in the world. I have not in any way been brought up as a Christian myself. My mother however was brought up in a quite strict Christian home and the reason the family allegedly became Christians was because they were in past generations partaking too much in card-games and drinking and in that risking to lose their farms in gambling. It was then my  great grandmother put a stop to all the “sinning” and they all became devoted and serious Christians. My mother then in her generation, stepped out of the church and brought me up strictly atheist. She would always say “there is more between heaven and earth but I want nothing to do with it.” For her the church had been a oppressor lead by her own mother, that forced her to suppress her self-expression and feel ashamed and guilty. So she opted out. I was christened and had a confirmation as part of the traditional protestant ceremonies, but none of it was done in the spirit of faith of any form.

As I started participating with Desteni and started unraveling the patterns and personalities I have become, I could see how the point of Christianity and being a Christian culturally was permeating me pervasively. Whether I would like it or not – I was a Christian. So when I here in this writing investigate myself as a Christian and as Christianity, it is based on this subconscious participation (meaning where I was not aware of it, but still lived it as it was passed onto me culturally and in the family) as well as the Christianity that I have seen playing out within and between human beings on earth – seeing it as myself and investigating how I have allowed myself to become a Christian. So I am walking this point for all, from here as myself. This is thus in no way meant to slander Christians or Christianity, but to expose the true nature and purpose of Christianity and to discover how Christianity can be redefined in way so that it can be lived and applied as what is Best for All. If any reactions come up, I suggest to investigate those for oneself as they provide a clue to the lies that we have told ourselves to not have to face the true nature of who and what we have become. What is cool about walking the point of Christianity from this perspective, is that I in fact have little personal experience with it – although for the points of judgment I do have, I will too forgive myself. But otherwise I will look at Christianity as it exists in general and as such might be able to see points that those who have had a more close relationship with Christianity might not immediately see, exactly as they might see points I do not see and as such we bring back all the “missing pieces” of how we have created and designed ourselves into and as that institution and relationship that is Christianity and the personality accompanying as “being a Christian.” – So this is merely a layer of Christianity. All the layers must be opened up; exposed and purified until all aspects of Christianity and being a Christian stands within the living application of what is best for all Life. I invite all to partake in this Journey of Life to discover the construct and label that is Christianity and being a Christian.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the cross is not a symbol of unity or holy sacrifice, but that it is a symbol of violence, separation and conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place all my faith and hope for humanity in the resurrection of Jesus Christ

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Jesus speaks to me in my mind, instead of seeing, realizing and understand that the only one that exists in my mind is me and that I have created the character of Jesus in separation of and from myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in an afterlife consisting of hell and heaven, instead of seeing realizing and understanding that hell is here on earth and that earth could be a living heaven for all, if I dedicate myself to do all and everything possible to ensure that what is best for all life become the living principle within which I live and to stop all preoccupation with hoping for a better life in the after life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going to hell and to hope that I will go to heaven, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that hell is already here on earth and that the heaven I hope to go to when I die, is not real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the bible as a holy book and to believe that if I follow all the rules and doctrines and words as they are stated in the bible, that I will go to heaven

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place blind faith and trust in the bible and that what is written in the bible is in fact the word of god instead of questioning for myself whether the words of the bible are standing for what is best for all life or not and such decide for myself if I will live those words or not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a Christian in the belief that I have chosen Christ and the faith in god and the church on my own volition and in my own free will, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I have been programmed and brain-washed to place all worth, value, faith and trust outside myself, within seeing that that was what my parents did and as such to please them and to ensure my own survival, I submitted myself unconditionally to the belief in god, Christ, the church and the bible without ever asking or questioning this for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I simply within defining myself as a Christian, are saved from the consequences as suffering, abuse and inequality that is manifested here on this earth, by god as a reward for my blind obedience and in that never question how such a god could allow such atrocities to exist in the first place

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Jesus died for my sins and that I am inherently a sinner – yet at the same time believe that I am created in the image and likeness of god and such not allow myself to see the direct contradictions and flaws that are evident in the Christian doctrine

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in and blindly trust in the righteousness of god to punish humanity for sinning, when in fact, sin could not exist without god creating the possibility for sinning in the first place and such that god is the creator of sin and thus responsible for sin and thus punishing humanity as his own creation for what he has created

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the wrath of god and to fear being sent to hell and forever burn in the flames separated forever more from god – instead of seeing, realizing and understand that this physical world as this earth, is already burning in flames and will exist as a hell until I stand up and take self-responsibility, realizing that I am the creator that I have separated myself from, into and as

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create, manifest and design the concept of “god” and “god” as the ruler of the kingdom of earth, heaven and hell – deliberately so as to justify my own separation from and of myself and so as to justify my own abdication of and from myself as the creator and so to project myself as good and evil onto an after-life that I must create blind faith to believe in, because I cannot go there without dying and such I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trap and enslave myself to live and exist in a life of anticipation, waiting, hoping and fearing for the after-life, not living here in any way what so ever because I believed that the after-life was the real life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify why I have a life with comforts, money, resources and earthly pleasures, by making-up the belief that I am blessed by god and such explain to myself in my own mind why it is righteous and acceptable that I have while others do not have, in the belief that I am special, chosen by god, a good Christian and as such that those who do not have what I have must be bad and that it is therefore fair and just that they are suffering

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and a polarity relationship between being good and being bad, believing myself to be inherently a sinner and thereby justify for myself when I commit a “sin” that I could not help myself because I was “born that way” and within that create an experience of guilt  and shame that I believe that through punishing myself before god, I have redeemed myself and hope that god will therefore have mercy with me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the devil for my “sins” and as such justify why  I have allowed myself to “sin” and as such allow myself to continuing “sinning” by making the excuse that I am “weak” and that I cannot take responsibility for myself, because what I do and who I am is the responsibility of “god” or “the devil”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project the responsibility for my actions onto two points of polarity as “good” and “evil” outside separate from me, as “the devil” and “god” and within and through that have justified the total and complete abdication of self-responsibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that god is almighty and good and that if evil exists then it is the fault of the human that has allowed itself to be seduced by  “the devil”, instead of seeing that this makes no sense, as god would always hold the primary responsibility for what is created

I forgive myself that I, within creating the concept of god to justify my separation from and of myself, have created the concept of “free will” and a such abdicated all self-responsibility for myself as the creator, by making-up the story that god in his goodness gave humanity free will to test their faith in him

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that “original sin” can only be created by god and as such that only god can be responsible for the creation of “original sin” and within that I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I have created both the concept of god and the concept of “original sin” to separate myself from myself there as the creator of what is here

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the concept of “free will” cannot exist together with the concept of the punishment of god as the punishment of god indicates conditioning and consequence while free will stands within the concept of no consequence. As such, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and manifest myself within the definition Christianity as existing in the tension field between “free will” and conditioning, not ever seeing, realizing or understanding how I have trapped myself and deceived myself to be able to live without taking self-responsibility for myself as the creator of and as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that every story told in Christianity, tells the truth of what really happened and who and why and how we are here on earth, and within that never allow or dare myself to question or to find out for myself whether this is so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that god has created life to test his creation to determine who is worthy of living with him in heaven and to immediately wish and hope and want and desire to be the one that gets to live with god in heaven, never questioning why god would create existence as separate, why god would create the human as not good enough and as having to prove itself worthy to god, instead of simply creating a reality and an existence where all is perfect and there is no separation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself believe and trust in Christianity and in myself as a Christian out of fear, that if I don’t, I will go to hell and burn forever

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that god could see everything I was doing and thinking and feeling and as such fear the punishment, wrath and judgment of god, yet at the same time experience and accept myself completely submitted to god and such accept myself as complete free of responsibility and consequence, within the belief that all is in the hands of god

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that everything something good happens to me – especially when it comes to money – that I am blessed by god and such more than those who do not have money, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I only have money because I am born into a system, where I have been conditioned and programmed to have, while other do not have and that this system is the manifestation and consequence of my own separation of and from myself that I have justified through creating the construct, entity and belief in god as a creator outside separate from me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the construct of god, to deliberately separate myself from myself as the creator

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the construct of polarity as heaven and hell as outside separate from me, specifically in the construct of the afterlife where I have no access and such separated myself from the responsibility and consequence of what I have accepted and allowed my creation to be and become

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, that I, within the definition of myself as “a Christian” am a “good person” without ever questioning or considering what that would practically mean or entail – and how I have been existing in and as a polarity relationship in my mind with that I have judged as “bad” believing that if I practiced and believed enough in Christianity and in Christ and in god I could be or become good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people believing in Christ, Christianity and god are good people and that people not believing in Christ, Christianity and god and the bible are bad people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I question my faith, belief and self-definition as “a Christian” that I will be bad, instead of realizing and seeing that “good” and “bad” are two sides of the same polarity that exists co-dependently and thus cannot exist without one another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in sin

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a sinner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believed that I have sinned when I allowed myself to deliberately abuse and cheat

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in sin in and as a moral polarity relationship to sanctity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a saint

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be a saint

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define saints as good and positive and sinners as bad and negative

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a polarity relationship to, towards the words saint and sinner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within and as a polarity relationship between the words saint and sinner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my actions is what determines whether I will be accepted as life or not – and thereby interpret and understand “being accepted as life” as separate from me and as based on a Christian belief of redemption and tiding

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify suffering, abuse and war in the name of god

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize or understand that within the very justification of creating war in the name of god, I have contradicted my belief that god is all-loving and all-mighty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify the suffering and abuse of children in the name of god

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately instill the fear of god in my children, to ensure that they would remain on what I believed to be “the righteous path” which in fact was nothing more than my own fear of god – hiding my own fear of facing myself as creator

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and trust that everything that it says in the bible is true, because my parents told me so, because I trust my parents to speak the truth and to know everything there is to know about the world

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider, that my parents have been brainwashed exactly as I have been brainwashed to without question, accept the bible as the truth, within fearing that were I to question the bible, god, jesus and the church, I would have to question this entire reality and why and how it exists and I would be faced with myself as creator, in the realization that everything and all that is here, is my creation and responsibility and that there is nothing or no one “behind” this world or existence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, experience, define, accept and judge myself as superior within the label of being “a Christian” comparing myself to those that are not labeled or labeling themselves as “Christians” as inferior and less than me, judging them to be “heretics” and me to be “a child of god” and such believe that I have more right to exist, to live

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create churches as places of worship using the money of poor people to create a shrine to worship god, when in fact god does not exist, except for as the manifestation of the justification of my separation of myself as creator

1 John 1:9

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, hope, trust in the goodness of god and to believe that god will come or that god will send Jesus and that the nightmare and hell that is life on earth as it exists, will as if by divine intervention be uplifted and everyone will live happily ever after

Within this, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed to question or investigate this belief or how I have created it within and as myself or what the consequences are of me waiting for god or Jesus to come and save me and humanity, while I do nothing but pray, go to church and live to survive and be “a good Christian”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only god can forgive me and within accepting that as true, have abdicated all self-responsibility for myself here and thus disabled myself to not be able to change or correct myself, because I within this am submitted and subjected to that which I perceive to be god

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see, realize or understand that “wicked ways”, “sinning” or “the devil” cannot exist without god’s direct creation, approval of and acceptance of these as real, because if god was not responsible he would not be almighty and then he would not be god

I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, that in order for me to be forgiven by god, I must repent, pay and feel guilty instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that this is not the way to take responsibility for what one have accepted and allowed and that any god that would demand this of his children, should not be trusted as we according to the belief, are created in his image and likeness

Luke 17:3-4

“Pay attention to yourselves! If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him, and if he sins against you seven times in the day, and turns to you seven times, saying, ‘I repent,’ you must forgive him.”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, that if I simply confess my sins and repent that I will be forgiven by god and within this not realize that I as such have justified the continuation of sinning, that I have allowed myself to continue sinning as long as I repent, confess and feel bad – and such that I have created this application of Christianity to justify acting in ways that are harmful, abusive, deceptive and not best for all

Matthew 6:12

“And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, hope, have faith in and trust that if I forgive my debtors, my debt will be forgotten – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that the practical manifestation of this point in the lives of human beings, is that those who make profit of others, are allowed by all to do so and that everyone is existing in debt because of it and in the peril and fear of not surviving that comes with it, thus enslaved to the debtors whom we believed we must forgive so as to stand favorable with god in the here-after

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept myself as in debt to god for having given me life

I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, accept and trust that I cannot and am not allowed to forgive myself in submitting myself to the belief that, that would be blasphemy against god, acting as if I am more than god, when in fact only god can forgive – instead of seeing, realizing and understand the flaw and lack of common sense in this belief, that god is the one that has created me as I exist and such it is in fact me who should forgive god for having created a flawed creation if the belief where to be real

Within this, I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the reason why I have not given myself the permission to forgive myself, is because I have separated Myself from myself as the creator and that I within self-forgiveness, stand up as the creator of and as myself and as such stop the separation of and as myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in and as

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to realize that within taking self-responsibility for myself as creator of what is here, I give myself the gift of self-forgiveness, of giving myself back to myself

I forgive myself that  I have not accepted or allowed myself to realize that in forgiving myself, as in giving myself back to myself, I am standing up as creator and as such taking self-responsibility for myself as creation and thereby enabling myself to change what is here as hell on earth to heaven on earth, because I have given myself back the authority and direction over creation as the manifestation of myself as creator

Ephesians 5:1-33

“Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God. But sexual immorality and all impurity or covetousness must not even be named among you, as is proper among saints. Let there be no filthiness nor foolish talk nor crude joking, which are out of place, but instead let there be thanksgiving. For you may be sure of this, that everyone who is sexually immoral or impure, or who is covetous (that is, an idolater), has no inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and God. …”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the flesh of the human body, the animals, nature is inherently “bad”, “dirty”, “filthy”, “evil” and “dangerous” and within that have rejected and suppressed all things related to nature and the physical, in the belief that “the devil” had his grip in the physical and as such I feared that were I took allow myself to embrace the physical, sexually or otherwise, that I would fall out of God’s grace and as such be condemned

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be disgusted, rejecting, punishing and separating myself from myself as a physical human female, within the belief that I am responsible for the original sin and the fall of man – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding why the aversion, perversion and taboo regarding nature, the female, the physical and sex has been created and impulsed by the propagators of Christianity, as myself to ensure that I remained enslaved to and as the delusion of myself as separate from myself as life here, equal and one

I forgive myself that I have not ever accepted or allowed myself to see, realize and understand that Christianity in its entirety have been created, with my direct and indirect permission, hand and approval, to deceive myself, as all of humanity, into waiting for something that never comes, into accepting a life of survival, war, abuse and suffering in the belief that if only “turn the other cheek” and prove myself worthy, that god WILL come – instead seeing, realizing and understanding that I have based my hope and my belief, on the fear that I am all there is, that we as human beings are alone here, that we are self-responsible for what is here, that no one is going to come and save us and that we have to sort ourselves out practically, physically, in self-honesty – taking self-responsibility for what is here as our own creation

Re-definition of “Good” and “Bad” as I have participated in and lived these words as an example of a Christian Polarity and how a word can be unraveled and purified to stand for what is best for all.

 Current allocation:

God and Bad are moral convictions, that as a compass tells me whether I have acted morally correct or morally incorrect. When I have done good, I am good. When I have done bad, I am bad. Thus, good and bad defines me as a moral being. Good and bad is what determines how I will be judged and weighed by “god” and thus determines whether I will go to hell or to heaven.

 Dictionary Definition:

good

n   adjective (better, best)

1   to be desired or approved of; pleasing. Ø(good for) beneficial to. Øexpressing good wishes on meeting: good morning.

2   having the required qualities; of a high standard. Ø(often good at) skilled at doing or dealing with a specified thing. Øappropriate. Ø(of language) with correct grammar and pronunciation. Østrictly adhering to the principles of a religion or cause: a good Catholic girl.

3   morally right; virtuous. Ø(of a child) obedient; well behaved.

4   enjoyable or satisfying: a good time. Ø(of clothes) smart and formal.

5                    thorough: a good look around. Øat least; no less than: a good twenty years.

 

Etymology:

O.E. god (with a long “o”) “virtuous; desirable; valid; considerable,” probably originally “having the right or desirable quality,” from P.Gmc. *gothaz (cf. O.N. goðr, Du. goed, O.H.G. guot, Ger. gut, Goth. goþs), originally “fit, adequate, belonging together,” from PIE root *ghedh- “to unite, be associated, suitable” (cf. O.C.S. godu “pleasing time,” Rus. godnyi “fit, suitable,” O.E. gædrian “to gather, to take up together”). As an expression of satisfaction, from early 15c.; of children, “well-behaved,” by 1690s.

 Bad

Dictionary Definition:

n   adjective (worse, worst)

1   of poor quality or a low standard. Ø(often bad at) not able to do a particular thing well. Øinappropriate.

2   unwelcome or unpleasant. Øsevere or serious. Ø(bad for) harmful to.

3   offending moral standards or accepted conventions.

4   injured, ill, or diseased.

5   (of food) decayed.

6                    guilty; ashamed.

 Etymology:

c.1200, “inferior in quality;” early 13c., “wicked, evil, vicious,” a mystery word with no apparent relatives in other languages.* Possibly from O.E. derogatory term bæddel and its dim. bædling “effeminate man, hermaphrodite, pederast,” probably related to bædan “to defile.” A rare word before 1400, and evil was more common in this sense until c.1700. Meaning “uncomfortable, sorry” is 1839, Amer.Eng. colloquial.

Sound:

GOOD:

GOOD – as a sounding of calling for god

GUT – conscience

GO-IT

GOT – having

BAD:

BAD – sounds like a sheep

BAD – in Danish it means “prayed”

BANNED – outcast/rejected/excluded

BAIT

 Redefinition: Good and Bad.

 Realizations:

It is interesting to see that the definitions I have held of ”good” and ”bad” primarily has been the never definitions that specifically pertain to guilt and morality as being well or misbehaved, whereas the original words are more specifically descriptive, such as ”bad”: defile (making something sacred dirty)

So one of the original definitions of good is “unite” and “suitable” whereas bad is specifically defined  not in opposition to good but as something entirely different, in “defiling”.  So if “good” is a sounding as calling for god and “bad” is the defiling of something sacred, there are the secret mind definitions, of whatever I have through the self-religion I have created and participated in, as “good” and “bad”.  As can be seen in the definitions of “bad”, it also pertains to human characteristics, which fits with how I have defined “doing bad” as “being bad” – and thus taken the act of acting badly personally, emotionally and not seen the practical context of the words. I also see a definition immanent in the definitions about where “good” pertains to “godly” and where “bad” pertains to earthly, which can also be seen in how I have defined sex and bodily fluids as “bad.”

My conclusion is that how I have defined “good” and “bad” is based on morality, a morality that I have integrated into and as myself based on Christianity and self-religion according to my personal experiences of “doing bad” and “doing good”. Another interesting definition, is how “bad” in Danish means “Prayed” and how “good” sounds like calling for god, and then at the same time there is the word “banned” in “bad” as well. This indicates a point of separation where I perceive myself as already bad, yet in a position of attempting to become good (stop sinning, be redeemed and forgiven by good). Thus, good is acting in “god’s will” and “bad” is acting against “god’s will” but here “god” is partly the entire moral system that I have integrated into and as me, as well as the mind in itself and fear. Another point that is then seen in how I acted out this pattern is how I believed I could redeem bad behavior by being good. I also did not in that moment take my partner’s experience into consideration – all that existed was my fear of being bad, which actually originated from me exerting anger in judging my partner as having done something bad. So all in all, I was entirely enslaved to my idea and submission to “good” and “bad” in and as a religious relationship with/towards “god” in which there was no common sense consideration of practicality. And through the guilt I have created when having done something bad, I have sent myself into a time loop of emotional experiences and in fact abdicated self-responsibility within placing the point of “god” and “bad” in a relationship to something/someone as a “higher force” outside separate from me, instead of applying the corrective action to the practical point I see in self-honesty in and through and as which I have allowed myself to stand unaligned with what is best for all.

 Re-definition:

Good is when a point is functioning optimally and does not require immediate alignment as it stands for/within what is best for all

Bad is when a point is not functioning optimally and thus requires immediate alignment to what is best for all

When and as I see that I have accepted/defined/judged/experienced myself as “good” or “bad” within and as a positive/negative polarity relationship in separation of and from myself in a relationship with a “god point” as morality and fear in and as my mind – I stop. I breathe and I bring myself back here to consider the practicality of the situation/point I am standing before in seeing how I can effectively correct/change/align myself in and as my application to what is best for all.

I do not accept any form of morality or moral considerations that is not based on what is best for all.

Good and bad as polarity does not define me. When I have acted unaligned with what is best for all, I stand self-responsible for/as/within correcting and aligning myself to what is best for all.

I commit myself to investigate all aspects of Christianity and the belief in god and Jesus and to get to know exactly how I have created myself as Christianity and as the definition of myself as “a Christian”

I commit myself to take self-responsibility for the creation of and as myself as Christianity

I commit myself to in all ways see, realize, understand and live the practical correction within the realization that we as human beings are alone here, that we are self-responsible for what is here, that no one is going to come and save us and that we have to sort ourselves out practically, physically, in self-honesty – taking self-responsibility for what is here as our own creation

I commit myself to walk a process of living the words of Jesus Christ of “loving thy neighbor as thyself” and of “treating another as you would want to be treated” until all my actions, all my participation is aligned to these principles – the only principles of Christianity that is valid, because they stand aligned with what is best for all

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Who I Am as The Creator of Resistance: DAY 3

April 17, 2012 in Anna's Journey to Life

I Resist Therefore I eXisT by HeDzZaTiOn Who I Am as The Creator of Resistance: DAY 3I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the creation, manifestation and design of resistance, as a systematic implantation that I have inserted into my very beingness, as the gatekeeper through which I keep myself separate from myself, so as to not see, realize or understand myself as creation and creator and so that I don’t walk out of the mind and into the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create, manifest and participate within and as resistance as a total encompassing impenetrable fortress of experience that I have created around and within myself, to ensure that I would remain separate, existing as parts excluded from each other, so as to not realize myself as the creation and creator of and as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into believing that I within the creation, manifestation, experience and acceptance of myself in and as resistance, were doing myself a favor, were supporting myself to fight against that which I perceived as a threat, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it was all in reverse – and that which I perceived as a threat, was in fact the key to my freedom: myself as the truth and true nature of who and what and how I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into seeing, perceiving and defining myself, in, into and as the creation of resistance in complete reverse – as the protection of myself from threats outside, separate from me – when in fact I was protecting myself within perceiving and accepting and experiencing  the realization and transcendence of myself as a threat

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize resistance to manipulate, deceive and force myself to remain enslaved within and as the confinements of the mind, creating and manifesting and participating in the delusional experience and acceptance that I within the experience of resistance, am protecting myself from being penetrated, infiltrated and invaded by something/someone outside separate from me that I have perceived as a threat to my very existence, not realizing that that something/someone, was in fact myself, as the truth and reality of myself as who and what and how I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, as the creation and creator of and as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest and create myself into and as resistance against the systems that I have created to contain myself and as such as resistance towards the oppression of myself instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I as resistance and oppression are two coins of the same creation and manifestation that I have created and manifested with the purpose of enslaving and containing myself and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into believing that I could change myself as the system of oppression through resistance

I forgive myself that I have not ever accepted or allowed myself to question the experience, definition and acceptance of resistance that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within and as, and that Instead deliberately have refused to question the experience of resistance, within the very nature of resistance as exiting in an experience of suppression and retraction in the self-deceptive belief and self-delusion that within accepting myself in and as and giving into resistance, I was protecting myself and supporting myself and caring for myself, to make sure that I stay away from all that I perceived as a threat to my existence

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that how I have defined, accepted, lived and experienced “my existence” in the context of resistance, has been as survival only and I forgive myself that I have not ever accepted and allowed myself to stop up and question the definition that I have created and accepted of “my existence” as survival

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the existence that I have believed and perceived myself to protect fiercely through my participation in and devoted submission to resistance, was the existence of myself as fear and within that the existence of myself as greed, as being completely absorbed by, within and as the fear of losing myself and losing the existence I have perceived myself to have and as such create the notion of survival as a way of justifying and substantiating my existence of myself as fear into and as physical practical reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take resistance for granted and to take the experience of and as in and as resistance for granted, in never questioning it or challenging myself to push through the experience of resistance and instead unconditionally accept resistance as a part of myself, in and from which I am protecting myself from that which I perceive to be a threat

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my creation, manifestation and participation in, of and as resistance based on and because of it being a “gut feeling” and an emotion – as I have defined myself within and according to emotions and feelings as that of and as myself that I could trust as real and true, simply because “I feel it”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately subdue and suppress and deny myself self-honesty and self-realization in moments where I am faced with resistance and where I deliberately create, manifest and participate within and as an experience of resistance – where I am fully aware that when I allow myself to give into and submit myself to resistance, I am preventing and prohibiting myself from facing and realizing myself in self-honesty, as the truth of and as myself as the creation and creator of and as myself

I forgive myself that I, in moment of facing resistance in and as myself, have accepted and allowed myself to create, manifest and participate within and as an automated submission to and a decision to give into and to comply with resistance, based on the acceptance and belief that resistance is in fact protecting me from that which I perceive to be a threat to my survival

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately and knowingly give into and submit myself to resistance in and as a refusal to face myself, as the truth of who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become – because I know that if I allow myself to face myself in self-honesty, I have but no choice but to take self-responsibility and to unravel and expose to myself the true nature of who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and as such have no choice but to change myself, to let of all that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and as such in giving into resistance, in fact making the choice to remain existing in self-deception, interest of and as ego as fear only in wanting to remain existing as I am, in the fear of losing myself  - not realizing that all that I exist as, as I have accepted and allowed myself exist, is the very manifestation and creation of loss and the very insistence of myself as loss and the very deliberate action to create myself into and as loss

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to embrace myself in and as resistance, to dare to get to know myself as resistance, by investigating and questioning who and what I am as resistance and how I have created myself into and as resistance and how and why I have created resistance as a protection installation into and as the totality of myself, as a fortress in which I believe and perceive myself to have created out of the necessity of keeping perceived threats on my life out, when in fact the entire and total purpose of the fortress of and as resistance that I have created for and as and with myself, is to keep myself enslaved, hidden, constrained and trapped in fear

I forgive myself that I have ever accepted and allowed myself to love fear, to cherish fear, to unconditionally submit myself to fear within and because of the experience of safety  and security that I created as a self-deceptive justification to remain existing within and as fear and as such, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create, manifest and participate within and as a relationship with fear, as separate parts of myself that I have brought together in their separate manifestations, in the purpose of protecting myself as the mind

Within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to submit myself to fear, without question, to deliberately inferiorize myself to fear and deliberately create, make, accept and experience fear as more than me, as stronger than me, as wiser than me, as smarter than me – within and as through the very manifestation and creation of fear, as that which I have created to justify my separation of and from myself and the very act of separating myself from myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand, that fear does not exist, that fear has no substance or ground, as fear is merely the reflection and the continued deliberate creation and acceptance of myself as separate from and of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever make myself forget that I created fear, out of and as the very manifestation and reflection of my self-created separation of and from myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand what the reason why, what I resist, persists, is because I resist is myself as the very creation and creator of and as myself, and what persists is the creation of and as myself that I am the creator of and such cannot escape myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, feel, experience and accept that I can trust myself as fear and as the manifestation of fear as the experience and creation of myself in and as resistance because I trusted the decision to separate myself from myself to protect myself and such I remain existing in that trust of my decision as creator and creation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust myself in and as the separation of and from myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust myself in and as the creation of myself as resistance and fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest resistance into and as this here human physical body and in and as the manifestation and creation of the mind as the very manifestation of myself as resistance towards facing myself as who and what and how I have accepted and allowed myself to exist, to be and become

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself by creating, manifesting and trusting resistance as physical experiences of “gut feeling” in my stomach with and through which I signal to myself that I am facing a point of threat and that I thorough experiencing the gut feeling, am telling myself to not go there – to run, to hide, to remove myself from the point I am facing and so not face or see or realize or understand or change myself as that point and instead remain as I am, as I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, as the very suppression of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, that when I experience a “gut feeling” as I have defined the experience of fear in the solar plexus of the human physical body, I must remove myself from the point that I perceive as threat within which I believe that the feeling in the solar plexus of the human physical body, is telling me to remove myself so that I can protect myself from the threat that I have perceived to be on my very existence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define, experience, believe and accept the gut feeling in the solar plexus of the human physical body, as the truth of me, as intuition, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that what I am experiencing is not the truth of me, but the very manifestation of the refusal to face myself in and as the decision to separate myself from myself as the refusal to return to myself as the totality of who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become – and such take responsibility for and as myself as the creator and creation of and as myself, to in fact change myself by stopping and letting go of who and what and how I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into and as creating and  manifesting resistance to facing and changing myself, by manifesting the resistance into and as the human physical body as experiences of tiredness, drowsiness, headache, itching, anger, irritation and pain – through which I have accepted and allowed myself to justify the compliance and submission of myself to resistance by deceiving myself into and as believing that what I am experiencing are mere physical and random experiences, that specifically requires me to remove myself from the moment of facing myself here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into and as creating and manifesting an experience of relief and release of physical discomfort, when I comply with resistance and submit myself to resistance and not push through or question the manifestation or experience of resistance and as such justify for myself that I through complying with resistance, are in fact protecting and caring for myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that only by pushing through the experience of resistance, will the experience of resistance stop and that I within pushing through resistance, will see, realize and understand that resistance, however substantiated and dense I have experienced it physically, was not real, but an energetic installation and manifestation of self-deception as deliberate suppression to not face myself here – in and as self-honesty, in and as self-responsibility as the creation and the creator of and as myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand, that within pushing through resistance, I am giving myself the gift of myself as realizing myself as who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and as such giving me back to me and in that re-claim from myself as the delusion that I have bewildered myself into and as in deliberate abdication of and from myself here, as the creation and the creator of myself as all there is, the authority to face me, to direct me, to take responsibility for me and in that the authority to change myself from and as who and what I have created myself into and as and accepted and allowed myself to exist in and as – to amalgamating and bringing back to myself, all parts of and as me, that I have separated myself into and as, till and as wholeness of and as me, as all life that is here, equal and one

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to embrace myself as resistance and to be grateful for myself as resistance, as the manifestation of resistance represent clear benchmarks as to what I require walking through to bring myself back to myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that every time I allow myself to give into resistance, I am directly responsible for the creation, acceptance, prolonging and intensification of consequence as suffering and abuse upon the very substance and flesh that is who I am, as this earth and the life-forms manifested and creation in and upon it – that will and do continue, until I bring all parts of and as myself back to myself in and as self-responsibility as the creator of myself, as all that is here as life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the consequences of me accepting myself to give into and go into and submit myself to resistance, is the prolonging of suffering for all life that is here as me, that I have abdicated myself from, into and as, as parts existing in relationships of inequality and abuse, that I by participating in resistance as a refusal to face myself in and as accountability for the creation of what is here, as the creator of and as myself as what is here

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that resistance is futile and that by resisting the very creation of myself as the systems that is manifested here on this earth, I am perpetuating war, abuse and suffering by and within separating myself from myself as the creator of – and thus the responsible for – what is here as life

I commit myself to push through resistance and to clearly identify for myself specifically which experiences is indicating resistance, so that I can with ease push through them, in clearly seeing directly and in self-honesty that what I am experiencing is resistance and that by pushing through it, I bring myself back to myself

I commit myself to continue pushing through resistance until I am able and capable of walking through resistance with absolute ease, self-trust and determination and I as such move myself through the final layer of resistance and no more exist in, of or as resistance in any way and thereby see, face, realize, embrace and take responsibility for myself in fullness and wholeness of myself as creation, as the creator of myself as all that is here

I commit myself to pushing myself to push through all points of resistance – to identify in self-honest when and where I experience resistance and to assist myself to consistently walk and push through resistance until no push is required and I simply face myself directly in and as the totality of the creation of and as myself as the creator of myself as all that is here

When and as I see that I am experiencing resistance, through in self-honesty having identified a point of resistance, I push myself in the realization that for every time I push myself, I am standing myself up and that resistance is merely the representation and manifestation of my abdication of, from and as myself and as such understand that I will persist until I have pushed through all and any forms of resistance – as the refusal to face myself here and take self-responsibility for who and what and how I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become

When and as I experience tiredness, that is clearly not physical, because it comes as a rush of sleepiness and specifically manifests as a want, need and desire to close my eyes and drift away – I Stop. When and as I see thoughts emerging as deliberate justifications of the resistance wherein I claim to myself that tiredness is physical and a physical need to rest, I stop. I breathe. I do whatever it takes to move myself out of the experience of tiredness, yet without replacing the one experience of resistance with giving to another – and so, I continue with what I was doing, when the experience of resistance emerged, as I realize that the resistance indicates a point as an opportunity to transcend a point of separation and as such realize myself and amalgamate a part of myself that I have separated myself into and as

As such – I commit myself to welcome and embrace resistance as a point of direct and undeniable self-support that I through witnessing before myself here – have enabled and are enabling myself to walk through until it is done.

For extended perspectives on the creation of resistance – and the releasing and facing of self as resistance, please read Creation’s blog here.

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2012 – I am Anu

March 15, 2012 in Anna's Process Blog

file0001297410727 1 1024x768 2012 I am AnuThe story of Anu is our story, yours and mine. This is our story. It is not a fairytale, a myth, a dream, a night-mare — it is in fact our story. And it is being told at last, so that all can be equally aligned in understanding where we come from and how we have gotten to where we are today in this world, this reality and in ourselves.

In the interview with Anu, he says:

“There is much more within this existence than just your idea of yourself. And one only has so many opportunities and so many chances, and that there is a point where it is too late. And many still within this existence wasting Time! There is such a thing as Time, at the moment. This physical existence is the manifestation of time, and time is being stretched, to allow for windows of opportunity as realization to emerge. But there’s still an extensive amount of: everything is ok, everything is fine! I’m ok and I’m alright! I’ve got time, there’s lots of time! I just have to do this little bit here, little bit there…  Careful! Because that reality can prove to you that you’ve been within an absolute illusion within who you are in existence. So don’t wait till it is too late!”

With his story Anu asks us to initiate our story, for me and you to initiate our story, that realization is possible in every moment. When I heard this – and exactly as Anu, it is not the first time I have heard this and missed the point – I thought: “how is that possible considering ‘who’ I am, ‘where’ I am?”

In these reviews of interviews, I have focused mostly on the story the being was telling or how their story related to “the grand scheme of things” – however with Anu’s story I can see that what is relevant Here – as it is at all times – is to bring the point back to myself.

So how am I wasting time? How do I not stand absolute? How do I believe that “there is enough time”? How have I been missing the obvious for so long when it – as myself here – was right in front of my face the entire time.

Usually when I write, I have a totality of a point within me and all I have to do is simply to write it through from beginning to end. But this time I have no such direction. What I have done when I have listened to the interviews for review has been to latch onto a specific point mentioned in the interview and then ‘rolled with it’ from there, giving perspectives and sharing my own insights.

Not this time. This time I start with the birth and death of myself in every breath. I start here from scratch without a preconception about where this writing will ‘end.’ And I do so because I was ‘inspired’ by Anu’s words and who and what Anu as an emergence of being represented of and as all of us.

As I walk and live my daily life-experience, I exist within a framework of being in full control. I have realized this in relation to living with pets and how they are at my beg and call – I decide when they eat, what they eat, where they eat, sleep and shit.

Initiating my story is the initiation of a story of abuse, deception and control. Except for the purely physiological requirements of a human physical body, I have, as the mind been in total control of the organism that is this body sitting here on a chair typing. I have decided when this body slept, when it ate, what it ate, who it had sex with, how and when it had sex and through participating in emotions and feelings and thoughts, I have superimposed myself as a mind-consciousness-system onto the body, perceiving the body from within and as my ivory tower of the personalities as ego, as a toy, a tool, a mere representation of myself. I have never given much thought or consideration to the processes the body goes through on a daily basis.

In fact, I have forced the body into submission and I have used it as scapegoat, as a place to cast my spite and vengeance. When I say this, I mean it quite literally. An example is a pattern I have recently realized, where, if I experience that someone has done me wrong or that I have been treated unfairly, I have suppressed the experience of anger, and immediately taken this anger out on the body as a twisted form of punishment through indulging myself in food or candy or entertainment or even drugs. In this pattern my idea of myself is that I am in pity and that I deserve some kind of treat or compensation for the wrong that has been done to me. So I indulge – but what I have actually been doing is to punish myself, force myself to eat foods that were not supportive for my body inverting my anger towards myself. I know where this pattern stems from, and I am working with stopping and releasing it through the writing of a Mind-Construct about that period I my life in the Desteni I Process.

Once seeing this, it is a shock to discover that I have done exactly to myself as Anu did to existence. I am Anu.

The body is an organism, a community made up by all the cells, the blood stream, the nerves, the muscles, the organs, the skeleton, exactly as the universe has stars and milky-ways or how the earth exists as an eco-system carefully orchestrated by all life-forms, plant, animal and mineral-life. The body is no different.

And I have been existing as the sole ruler, the god over myself as an eco-system, a planet, a universe. There has been absolutely no equality in my ruling of myself, because it has all been about one point: consciousness. The consciousness as my experience and perception and acceptance of myself from within and as the mind, only caring about my own ideas and feelings based on accumulated threads of memories and information intertwined and tangled into each other into personalities that I perceive and experience as a monocracy that I perceive as “myself”, a single entity.

What is best for all as the entirety of the system that starts with this physical body and is no different in the world or existence as a whole, is not something I have ever considered. I have only considered my body-functions and possible diseases from a starting-point of avoiding pain and death.

How the blood stream, the intestines or the organs experience themselves in the human physical body is never something that has crossed my mind. Why? Because I have been entirely obsessed with my idea of myself in the mind. I have not given a shit about the body or its components and life-forms, because all I cared about was what the body could do for me, what it would get me, how I could use the body to create experiences of pleasure and excitement.

My entire life has been about indulgence, about getting to the next sensory experience and no matter how the body has responded; I have kept going and going – exactly as Anu. And the body has simply been here all along, silently and unconditionally supporting me, no matter what – exactly as the earth, the plants and animals has done for us as human beings for so long.

So this is the core of my message today and what I got from listening to the interview with Anu: that I have existed as an Anu in myself – even in the words commonly used to describe this living as “my own body” – I have perceived the human physical body as my property, not even existing in itself.

This is the thing with slavery – and quite interesting actually, that it only works as long as the one being enslaved is deprived of being considered “life”, sentience or even existing and is silenced to exist only as an object to be used. This is what the human physical body has been to me.

As I have been working with Pilates and with my body in discovering what types of food are supporting I have started to discover myself as the physical. But what I have learned first and foremost is how little I have been in my physical – that is even in itself an oxymoron that shows the absolute absurdity of how we have existed. Because no matter what we are in fact here in the physical – we are in fact here as the physical. So the fact that we can live in a way that is not physical, described not even being in the physical, but in a make-belief reality in our minds, ought to serve as a wake-up call that something is not as it should be in this world and in ourselves.

It is fascinating the belief that we must control the body through the mind, because that in itself is a form of dictatorship, where one part of the eco-system is placed above all else, as a god that dictates and decides how to live and interact. It is simply not an effective – or the best way – to exist.

So what I am looking at here is the understanding and progressing realization that the body is a multitude of equal parts, equal parts and make up a whole, the whole that is me walking around, living, typing, existing – this is the wholeness through and with which I can stand for what is best for all. As the entirety of me as the human physical body stand for what is best for all, all parts will operate optimally as they will all support each other and none will claim to be more or less than other parts. The body does not require a king or a god or a monocratic leader because it’s oneness consist of and exist as equal parts – the liver cannot exist without the kidneys functioning just like the blood and the heart work together.

It is about time that we as human beings start seeing that this is what is required on this planet, if we are to co-exist and not destroy ourselves through a simultaneous implosion and inflation of the world systems we live in and as.

The body is not a temple, but it is also not an object or a slave of consciousness. And furthermore: this entire point is in reverse; consciousness is not who I am or who we are. From that perspective consciousness is an artificial insemination that is ‘born’ from an accumulation of consequences, over and over until we began believing that all these excuses, justifications and lies, were who – and all we were.

The physical is here. The physical is the totality of what is here. And as I exist in and as a human physical body, I too am a part of that. There is no one to blame for what is here. All we can do is to as the whole take responsibility for the parts we are standing in and as, and as the parts we are standing in and as, take equal responsibility for the whole.

I am not the god over the body. I do not have “a right” to do with the body as I please.

Realizing ourselves in the moments of opportunity becomes a lot easier and accessible as we stand one and equal in the group that is the community of the human physical body, feet grounding by gently pressing into the earth below us, ears alert, eyes open, back straight and breathing ourselves in and out, through the lungs, the blood stream, the heart. In that we can stand in self-support, all parts coming together in this moment of realization – equal and one, best for all.

 

 

 

 

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What will END Jehovah’s Witnesses?

December 10, 2011 in Equal Money Blog

prayer surrender What will END Jehovahs Witnesses?I once heard a joke that went something like this: “A man died and went to heaven. As he knocked on the door to heaven, Sct. Peter opened the door and invited him in. Sct. Peter welcomed him to heaven and started showing him around. The man saw people sitting and drinking coffee and chatting, just like normal. They passed by a room and the man looked in. The people that was sitting in there waved hello The man thought that they looked perfectly normal. Sct. Peter said “oh yes, that is the muslims”. They continued down a hallway and came to a closed door. Sct. Peter said: “Listen, I am going to open this door and you can look in, but do UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES let the people know that you are there.” The man said: “why not?” and Sct. Peter replied: “Because they are Jehovah’s witnesses and they believe they are the only ones here.”

One of the primary beliefs of the Jehovah’s witnesses is the belief in armagedon as the end of the world as we know it. They also believe, hence the joke, that only those who give themselves to God (as the Jehovah’s witnesses) will be saved and be a part of a new world with heaven on Earth. The Jehovah’s witnesses outlook on the world is thus one of division, where there are only two kinds of people: the soon-to-be-saved people (themselves) and the profane and soon-to-be-doomed (everyone else).

In looking at why people subscribe to something like Jehovah’s witnesses, there are multiple and many complex, intersectional reasons – and at the same time, Jehovah’s witnesses are just like any other group or individual in the world that abdicates the total responsibility  for their lives by projecting it onto a elusive  creator-figure located in some ‘distant realm’ conveniently out of reach. Being a Jehovah’s witness makes the people that define themselves as “witnesses” feel safe. By belonging to a community such as the Jehovah’s witnesses, one does not have to be alone in the world and are supported  by the community to care for ones basic needs. If one however leave the community, one risk being ex-communicated and never again see one’s family or friends. By being a Jehovah’s witness, one  hand over one’s life to a “higher power” and through that never have to ask any questions or stand accountable for the consequences of their actions based on their beliefs. The same goes for the community ones live in.

These are then some of the primary reasons for why people participate in such communities –  however in the Jehovah’s witnesses community as also in other fundamentally religious communities and the 2012 movement, there is a further dimension of/as the belief in “the end of times” or armagedon. What this belief gives them, is a sense of “now” and an energetic excitement within knowing that the end is near. It is also because of the belief that the end is near, that they lay their life in the hands of god. Because, what do they have to lose? And ironically, the same goes the other way around – according to this belief, they have everything to lose if they did/do not subject themselves to god. Within the world constantly ending they can perceive what is here as unreal and irrelevant. They simply have to wait for the rest of the world to end and for them to ‘rise to the occasion.’

In an Equal Money System, there will be no Jehovah’s witnesses because in an Equal Money System there will be no reason to submit and subject ourselves to authorities outside, separate from ourselves. Our lives will not be so miserable that we literally have to hand ourselves over to a fictive savior-figure, to which the only security we have, is faith. Instead we will be supported – we will support ourselves – through a system of practical Equality, to stand up as self-authorities, as sovereign and equal citizens of Earth. The reason for this is that we in an Equal Money System, will be supported from the moment we are born with the basic necessities that each of us require; clean water, food, shelter and education.

Within this, we are all standing together as the point of support and self-authority. There is no need for ‘middle-men’ as God or church-leaders to decide who we are,  or where we are gonna go, because we have taken life into our own hands and stand together to ensure that what is best for all life, is implemented into and as our world-systems and societal institutions. Life is in our own hands and it is on our own feet that we will be walking a new world into manifestation, one step at a time. We do not require beliefs in armagedon or any other beliefs to fee alive or to postpone our self-responsibility for what is here – we are directing ourselves here and immediately take care of what is required to be done, so that all citizens, all Earthlings are ensured a life of dignity.

An Equal Money System will be the end of Jehovah’s witnesses because in an Equal Money System, we will simply all be witnesses of our own self-direction and self-creation of a world that is best for all. The people who were Jehovah’s witnesses because they did not know what else to do, because there were no alternatives, will simply be people, equally living here.

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Spirituality is Evil

November 7, 2011 in Anna's Process Blog

166970 10150350634218076 632378075 8181112 862058016 n Spirituality is EvilNeale Donald Welsh says: “We are here to experience any aspect of Divinity that we wish. That is what makes this a paradise.”

This statement would imply that there is some form of “higher power” or “divine core” at play that is essentially guiding and directing existence, almost as though we were inside a caring womb. In this we are walking a path that is carefully laid out for us with the love of our creator to ensure that we learn what we are supposed to learn. In this, we are safe, warm, cared for. In this everything happens for a reason and nothing happens without it being directed by “the divine principle” and therefore it is in itself essentially, ‘divine’.

Now – We exist and live together on a planet, where more than two billion people are existing in starvation and poverty. One billion of those people starve from the moment they are born until the day they die. These people are existing, side by side with us, on this very planet. There are wars for drugs, wars for money, wars for god and there are children that are being raped by their own parents. There are animals that are being tortured simply so that human beings can feel safe with their beauty products. There are entire species of animals that are going extinct for no apparent reason other than the human preoccupation of earth.

So – to claim that this is “paradise“, that “it happens for a reason” and that “there is a plan” – is not only delusional and self-deceptive – it is evil. Because who is it exactly who get to “experience any aspect of Divinity that we wish”? 

Only those who has enough money to not have to suffer and fight for their survival. Everyone else is stuck with what they got, forever conditioned – including their children and grandchildren – to exist in poverty, war and pain. They properly would disagreed with Neal that they are experiencing any aspect of Divinity  at all. They properly would simply like to live and exist without having to fear for their survival, without having to worry that their children will be raped by soldiers. They are properly too busy surviving to read Neal Donald Welsh’s books or to consider themselves lucky for the “opportunity to grow”.

Life is only divine if you can afford to buy a piece of heaven. And all that is in this world – is a temporary relief from suffering, from the hell that is here. A temporary dream state where you can meditate away into a delusional space of your mind where you lull yourself to believe that everything is A okay.

So the statement made here  by neal – is evil in nature – because within and as it – is a justification of the suffering of others, of those who do not have, within placing them into a scenario that makes sense, so that self can justify why self has money and others don’t.

This is not paradise – this is hell on earth. And we are all here to live it. Money cannot buy us out of this one and we better get our feet back on the ground so that we can sort out what is here in collective and equal support of all life. It is actually – literally and physically – possible to create heaven on earth, a virtual paradise. But it does not happen inside our heads or as a feeling – in which most people on earth are excluded.

It happens through us building it, creating it, creating ourselves as the custodians and inhabitants of it. It happens through using using our feet and hands to change this world on a practical, fundamental level – starting with stopping the delusions of mind that we’ve lulled ourselves into and as.

Vote for an Equal Money System – Vote for a Life that is Dignified for All.

Join Desteni as we embark on a Journey of a Life Time – The journey we don’t have to go anywhere to participate in, because it all happens right here.

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Atheists – The World’s Most Faithful Believers

May 25, 2011 in World Exposed Blog

2007 06 05 atheists dont exist Atheists The Worlds Most Faithful Believers Atheists… are Believers. That’s right! You heard it – Atheists are some of the world’s most faithful and fundamentalist believers. Why? How? Let me explain: What do the atheists believe in?

That the Christians are WRONG!

The belief of atheism was created (according to folklore and holy scripts on national geographic) as a counter-reaction towards the notion of a separate creator. Atheists believe that a big cosmic orgasm, as the result of a love-fest between protons and neutrons and what have you not, is the origin of life – and not like that silly story of… the love-fest between Adam and Eve.

Atheists enjoys getting together with friends and family, celebrating their proud atheists traditions passed down from father to son, of debating with superior spite towards those believers of a more “ethereal” kind that they consider beneath their paygrade.

The atheists were brave men and women fighting against the oppression of believing in god. There might not be a god in the faith of atheism (which states that everything created itself, just because it did – which is actually one of the more common-sensical atheist beliefs) – however the atheists do believe that there is only true faith: science.

Atheist ad Atheists The Worlds Most Faithful Believers The true, righteous atheist must have no other practices than that of science as it has been taught by the holy forefathers of math and biology and must never change and always be the same. Like everyone else, atheist scientists believe in money first and foremost,being willing to take on any task, like Oppenheimer’s small bomb or the guy who invented breast-implants.

The atheists with their firm faith in science are certainly not responsible for the failure of oil-spill, or why products are being invented that pollute and contaminates the planet, that could easily be built in support of life, or why only medicine that ease the pain of the obese westerners is being developed and researched into at universities and in private labs.

Why? Because it is the Christian’s fault. (Perhaps atheists are really the minions of the Christians and we wonder why no atheist has ever been a world-leader?)

At Desteni we are REAL atheists. No god – yet we stand responsible for our creation. No after-life. We’ve got enough on our hands in this life.We realize that this life, this earth, this breath, is all we’ve got, there is no one else here, nothing else is here – and that what is here is what matters, not the idea of what is here. Everyone is here equally.

Atheists The Worlds Most Faithful Believers All life is equal in fact – same molecules, same particles. Therefore we realize that we must take responsibility for what is here and live the solutions that are best for all, based on the simplistic equation of equality – 1 + 1 = 2 and it is really… as simple as that

Investigate The Desteni I Process for a re-education of humanity to common sense, self-honesty and equality.

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Q and A – on “Why it is Impossible to be a Good person”

March 8, 2011 in World Exposed Blog

choices Q and A on Why it is Impossible to be a Good personThe following Q and A is from an article I wrote on Morality and how it is impossible to be Good, due to the nature and construct of Polarity.

The Question was posted as reply to this article in my column on the Sociology Journal

Q – from Sergey:

“What is the motivation to be good? Some people try to be seemed perfect just for kind of superiority feeling, some ones blindly follow the conducts of their authorities, whether parents or church, or neighborhood. It is evident that for such people to become better is really hard. But there is another reason of being good. Those who have dedicated their lives to something great, I mean great service for humanity, or sincere efforts to realize the Supreme; those people are becoming great very soon themselves. If being good is not an ultimate goal, but just a method for something greater, than it is not so impossible task and not a big issue either.”

A – My reply:

The motivation to be good is the fear of going to hell – the fear of being punished by god. And yes it is also about the polarity between superior and inferior, same as good and bad or good and evil. It is however not simply “some people” who Participate in these polarities, but literally all of us. Even though the immediate authorities seems to be parents, the church or even friends- the ultimate authority is us, existing as a ball been thrown (or essentially throwing ourselves) between and as these polarities, of and as the Mind. To desire to be superior, we must first accept ourselves as inferior – to desire to be good, we accept ourselves as bad. By promoting “positive thinking”, were are consequently creating hate and judgment – that is the nature of polarities, constantly balancing themselves out. So – those people “who have dedicated their lives to something great, I mean great service for humanity”, are Equally Responsible in the creation of the World as it currently exist – as we currently exist, in Suffering, Abuse and Self-Deception. Looking back in the history of mankind, no such person has EVER made any significant difference in this world. This is in Fact – the epitome of Self-Deception. That we require to “aspire” – “to Ascend”, which literally means accepting ourselves as less attempting to become more than who and what we actually are Here, as who and what we have Accepted and Allowed ourselves to Exist in and as – and the consequential result for such people: is that they end on their ass. To say that “those people are becoming great very soon themselves.” – Reveals a starting-point of hope as Self-Deception within believing in a force, outside separate from us as “the Supreme” – that magically will Change us, for us – instead of us taking Self-Responsibility and Change Ourselves. We do not require “great service for humanity” – Humanity as it currently exists, is rotten to the core. We require to Face Ourselves, as All that is Here, in Self-Honesty and Common Sense Realizations, that Everything that is Here – is Who we are and that the World only exist the way it does, because we exist the way we’ve Accepted and Allowed Ourselves to Exist. We Actually have to Change – in Fact, from, within and as the madness and mayhem that we have become.

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The Game of Survival – Inequality Equations and Miss-Calculations

December 31, 2010 in World Exposed Blog

Most of the ‘great thinkers’ throughout history have seen parts of this, hinted and circled these points like vultures for truth and reason. But it has become the norm to either avoid setting Principles before preference, to allow ‘free-will’ to ‘run it’s course’ – or to set norms that are constructed with flaws of abdication of Self-Responsibility, placing faith in ‘higher powers’. But if we start a calculation by making one plus one three, suddenly three plus three becomes eight and so whatever we do, will be miss-calculated – every single calculation from then on out, will be flawed.

Thus Nietzsche had a point, when he called for a re-evaluation of all values – of the courage to Face ourselves within the Self-Delusion that we have Allowed to become the very ‘foundation’ of ourselves. Only then can we be able to begin making decisions that are based on Principles before preference, where we Dare to Will ourselves to Stand by these Principles no matter what. All morals that have existed so far, has been inherently immoral, therein lays the flaw and the miss-calculation. We have not Considered Life and from there seen what is required to be done, but have placed ‘more’ value and ‘less’ value, making ourselves the judges of Life, yet abdicating the Responsibility for the decisions we have made within that process – and more specifically, not Daring to Face the fact, that we might have made a mistake within the course of the ‘progress’ that we call ‘evolution’.

Ulrich Beck also has a point when he calls for a Cosmopolitical Global community that dares making local politics Global, which does not only mean for the System of governments, but for the governing of ourselves as well. Within the current system, we are existing in separate well-defined boxes as nation-states and personalities bound to these nation-states, in separate projects that we call ‘a life of our own’. But around us already exists a Global system with the ability to get in anywhere, to move anywhere, to move anyone and to direct the course we collectively take without any foundation in political decisions based on Common Sense Principles and Considerations of What is Best for the Whole of Earth. They seem to be having ‘a life of their own’, yet behind every move made, are Human Beings.

This system functions only within the Acceptance of all of us in it, through the belief that no matter who you are, you have a fair chance. But when you are born chained to the debt of your parents, your country or your continent, the prospects of ‘a fair chance’, equal to someone else in a prosperous situation, is virtually non-existing. Yet we have used this belief to justify the Suffering that we have Allowed and to hide within ourselves the deep dissatisfaction that we too are living only to survive.

From Canada to Cameroon, for each of us finance is about our private lives, earning a living, feeding our children, buying a home. But for some, finance is a game – a game that only they know how to play, a game where it is other people’s money that is at stake. It is a game of speculation, of digits jumping off screens and into the pockets of those fortunate enough to know the rules of the game.

The problem is that each of us, the one’s that worry about our mortgage, about college tuition for our kids, about providing bread on the table the next day, and the next, are not aware that we are part of the game, that we are game pieces, the pawns and ducks and that it is our personal finance that makes up the game board, from which the lucky few have their laugh.

We do not see that we are connected, that we together without knowing it, provide the bolts that make the wheels of the game of finance keep turning. We are all a part of it, from New York to Nigeria – but for some the stakes are higher than for others – some play the parts of the constant losers, generation after generation depleted and exploited: natural resources, education, health-care, clean drinking water and the ability to make a living. Others play the part of the middle-class, the masses of endless consumption, who more willingly take their part in the game, because they might, they might get a shot of getting ahead, of securing their future, of being the one’s that get to play – and win. The secret that no one has told us and that we couldn’t figure out for ourselves because we didn’t know the rules of the game, is that we are playing whether we like it or not, whether we are aware of it or not. And it is within each of us, playing for ourselves, for our own lives that this secret lays. Because we believe that we are not connected, that we are not playing a game – because it is our lives, our childrens lives that are at stake. Yet that is exactly what keeps the game playing itself – the investment of our lives, the fear of not surviving and the desperate comfort when we do.

So essentially there are two games being played on one chess board:  One is the earth with its cities and its cornfields and its oil rigs and its slave labor. The other takes place in the clouds of speculation, making up the rules as it’s goes along for the other game to provide the necessary fuel and finance to ensure that a few, a lucky few, remain the winners. These gamers take media, banking, wars and governments and shape them to fit their need. Everything that we see, everything we eat, every cent we give to charity is carefully calculated to ensure that the game keeps going. It is essential to the game that only a few knows how to play it. So the rules are made complex, requires special education that one can only achieve by investing oneself in the game – a network of gamers, that has been compiled through generation after generation , shell-company upon shell-company that seems endless and off the map. Brands with family names that project loyalty and sincerity, yet are transnational and not bound by any Principles or laws. But behind them are people, behind it all is always people. It is not an evil conspiracy, but it is the Human Nature of greed. And who of us can say that we would not ever have done the same, were we in their golden slippers or golf shoes today?

The point to get across is not the revolutionary notion of the proletariat fighting the evil bourgeoisie – but to understand that the game is kept going by all of us investing ourselves in the game, whether we like it or not, whether we know it or not. The nature of the game is to keep depleting the Earth, its animals and people, through a carefully orchestrated centrifugation of land, crops and oil. How it ends up being real money in the hands of real people, lies within the structure of our systems: our faith that banks are institutions of the people, that governments are institutions of the people, that corporations simply supply the demand of the people, that media serves the interests of the people. And so – we support, we participate; we live our lives, with pensions and debt and cravings for new merchandise to give us the feeling that we are getting somewhere, that we are moving up in the world. The farmer or factory worker in Nigeria or Cameroon has no chance of breaking the chain. The guys on top of the food chain have no interest in stopping the game. They are just as scared of loosing what they have as the rest. And in between are the rest of us. The middle-class that do no harm, the ones that are not responsible. We each live our lives, privately, separately, only meeting in banks, shops, churches, on game shows on TV or even on Facebook. Many of us see that something needs to change. Some place their fate in spirituality, in positive thinking and in the belief that everything happens for a reason. Cleaning the body, the soul, the earth has become a business of its own. Others want to fight the system, the rich, and the governments and unite in small groups of resistance, going ‘off the grid’ often based on feeling powerless and angry. A vast amount of people play computer games, smoke weed, drink or eat because they don’t know what else to do – and then there are those that embrace the system, exercise, build careers and families, believing in the progress of the Human race.

We all know that a change is required, yet we do not believe that we are the ones required to make it happen for whatever reason we make up for ourselves. It is the governments, the corporations, our parents, God’s, the system’s Responsibility – yet it is clear that none of these are capable of taking Responsibility within their current condition. What we do not see, and yet do see without admitting it to ourselves in full awareness of what that implies, is that our World is the Whole World and that these private lives and ‘worlds’ that we experience on a day to day basis, are based on this illusion of Separation and within this the fear of not surviving and the justification of competition with All other ‘parts’ of life as something ‘natural’ and unchangeable. It is supported by the delusion of ‘free-will’, which is really just a fancy word for self-enslavement – the master becoming his own slave and throwing away the key.  If we take a good, long, hard Self-Honest look at the World and ourselves within it, we will clearly see that the ‘free-will’ that we worship is determined by one thing only: Money. Thus we become our own slaves in the belief of ‘free-will’ as something real – willing to give up everything, to sell ourselves, to become workers pretending to work towards ‘self-realization’ within a career as the main purpose of our lives, most of us secretively desiring to be somewhere else, to be someone else, yet not even able to admit that to ourselves having accepted this basic self-deception of ‘free-will’, determined by the silent taboo of money.

When do you ever hear people talking about money? Really talking about money? We would say; “everyday, all the time” – but that is not so. People talk about survival, about the game of survival, either in frustration or relief or brag about their ability to survive. We do not talk about what is behind money, what we, through the symbol of money, and what money to re-present, have done to ourselves. Some will see it and they will see that what is required is to stop the money-system entirely. But what they are not seeing is that the blame and thus the Responsibility for this condition is placed outside Self – trying to fix the illness by making the symptoms go away – be that money, the system, the government or god. We have allowed money to be the re-presentation of ourselves as individuals and as a whole – dis-playing before our very eyes on an everyday basis, the cruelty and the absurdity of the game we play. It is obvious that if we are playing a game without knowing the rules, we never had a chance of winning in the first place. But if the game cannot continue without us playing, knowing the rules or not – we cannot stand by say that we are not Equally Responsible. The question is thus if we dare changing the rules of the game and even more so: what will happen when we do?

Within the Equality Equation of One plus One being two, it is clear to see that it is possible to change the course of the World through a simple Application of Common Sense. This is not about ideological or life-style politics, it is not about debating between a socialist or capitalist society – It is the Basic Common Sense Realization that we All Participate Equally in this World, though through a System based on Inequality and Separation, a flaw in the Equation that can be solved through the Application of Principle above preference, but where some are in a position currently to make a difference, while others are not. It is those of us who are in a position to make a difference that has the first Responsibility to do so – but that also means the Responsibility to sort out our own miss-calculations and Inequality equations within whatever we Participate within and as, inside ourselves as well as in our daily life experiences, as the One plus One plus One plus One – that can Change the game of Survival to a Life in Equality of All Beings – a Life where we can finally start having fun and play together instead of fighting each other in the delusion of separation and survival that was never more Real than what we have Allowed it to be. Support The Equal Money System to End All Inequality Equations through Self-Responsibility For All as One as Equal as Life.

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