June 21, 2013 in Anna's Journey to Life
For context, I suggest reading the previous posts in the series:
- Brainwashed to Love – (Relationship Paranoia pt. 5) – DAY 214
- Falling in Love as the Meaning of Life: (Relationship Paranoia Pt. 4): DAY 213
- The Insanity of Falling in Love – (Relationship Paranoia – Part 3): DAY 212
- Discontinuing The Sexual Hunger Games: DAY 211
- She’s A Man Eater: DAY 210
In this post we will be working with scripting self-commitment statements on the self-forgiveness that we walked on day 213. So basically the point here is to release and let go of the paranoia of falling in love based on the realization that the falling in love experience is a delusion as we’ve discussed in previous blog posts. We will also her work with the commitment of establishing relationships with other people based on common sense and practicality within and as this physical world and thus let go of and release all mental fantasies about and desires for ‘great love’ experiences.
When and as I see that I am accepting and allowing myself to participate in the belief and experience that I am falling in love and that this is a real experience – I stop and I breathe and I bring myself back here to my physical body. Because I see, realize and understand that the experience of falling in love isn’t real and I see, realize and understand that I am the one that has convinced myself that it is real because I wanted it to be real because I felt it gave life/my life substance and value because I didn’t want to face the truth of what is here as this life/my life. I also see, realize and understand that I’ve gladly eaten up all the ‘love propaganda’ that was served to me from the media and from other people because it supported my belief that ‘there must be more than this’ as well as obviously being a factor in how I’ve accepted and allowed myself to become brainwashed to believing in love because I constantly was fed with symbolic and energetic impulses and information that claimed that love was real. Therefore I commit myself to stop engaging in the experience of falling in love. And I commit myself to let go of the belief that falling in love is a real experience.
When and as I see that I am accepting and allowing myself to participate in a belief that something is real only because I feel it as an emotion or a feeling – I stop and I breathe and I bring myself back here to my physical body and I stabilize myself here. Because I see, realize and understand that emotions and feelings aren’t real as they are the result of the accumulation of my participation in thoughts and mental participation that generates energy and they’re completely unstable and can change and shift at any moment and therefore they’re certainly not reliable as real indicators of anything in reality. So therefore I commit myself to let go of the belief that something is real because I feel it as a feeling or an emotion and I commit myself to instead focus on being and living here in the physical and utilize the physical as a cross-reference point through which I can see what is real or not. Within this I also commit myself to push the point of only accepting that which is best for all as real – as a reestablishment of reality where I slowly but surely start to disengage myself from the manifestations in the physical that aren’t best for all and only accept that which is best for all as real.
When and as I see that I am accepting and allowing myself to participate in the belief and the consequential accumulated energy feeling in love – that someone else can make me whole or perfect or in any way change me and who I am through being the solution to all my problems as that which I’ve defined as ‘falling in love’ I stop and I breathe and I bring myself back here. Because I see, realize and understand now that another person cannot ever make me whole or change me or my experience of and as myself. And I see, realize and understand that I’ve tried to use ‘falling in love’ as a short cut to perfecting myself because I believed that finding ‘the one’ was the missing ingredient in my life – never seeing, realizing or understanding that the missing ingredient in my life was: me. Therefore I commit myself to let go of the belief that someone else can change me or fulfill me or complete my life or me. And I commit myself to take it upon myself to take responsibility for myself and my life and to within that take responsibility for me not living as a whole, integrated within and as myself in oneness and equality. Within this I commit myself to push the point of writing and self-forgiveness to get to know myself and to relieve myself of all mental limitation and walls that I’ve placed within myself and as myself through which I’ve separated myself from myself
When and as I see that I’m accepting and allowing myself to participate in the belief of falling in love that “this is THE ONE” I stop and I breathe and I bring myself back here to myself and stabilize myself here within and as my physical body. Because I see, realize and understand that since I’ve believed that someone (quite randomly) is THE ONE many times, I obviously can’t trust my own judgment, perception or experience and it obviously isn’t real since it can disappear as fast as it came. So I commit myself to let go of the belief in THE ONE as a true mate or a soul mate that somehow is my missing piece. Because I see, realize and understand that the only missing piece is myself.
When and as I see that I within my mind am participating in the justification and belief that falling in love is a real experience as a great spiritual and existential experience I stop and I breathe and I bring myself back here to my physical body and I stabilize myself here. Because I see, realize and understand that I’ve created this belief and justification so as to give life/my life meaning and purpose and to convince myself that the universe is good and made of love so that I didn’t have to face the reality of what is here in and as this world and in and as myself. Therefore I commit myself to let go of the belief that love is some spiritual and existential starting-point because I see, realize and understand that this is certainly not true considering the extent of suffering and abuse that is being accepted and allowed in this world. Therefore I commit myself to instead push myself to see, realize and understand what is here in fact in and as this world and in and as myself so that I can walk and participate in the process of practically stopping the abuse and suffering through changing myself and through the implementation of an Equal Money System.
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