Discontinuing The Sexual Hunger Games: DAY 211

June 8, 2013 in Anna's Journey to Life

 Discontinuing The Sexual Hunger Games: DAY 211In this post I will be writing self-correction and self-commitment statements on the man-eater character that I wrote about in my previous blog-post. Today I’ve been walking self-forgiveness out loud as well on the specific memories where I executed the ‘Man Eater’ and accepted and allowed myself to live it out no matter the consequences. It has been a fascinating point to walk through exactly as I’ve described because it is a point of ‘pure evil’ from the perspective of how the ‘Man Eater’ or the ‘Player’ as it is also known as when it is a male accessing and executing this character has absolutely no regard for others. I even found that the ‘Man Eater’ sees people who are in relationships as more desirable partners because the ‘win’ of seducing them is considered more difficult and has higher stakes.

Self-Corrective and Self-Commitment Statements

When and as I see that I am accessing the ‘Man Eater’ Character as indicated by how I change my behavior when around specific people in my reality within and as a desire directed towards the specific person, I stop and I breathe. I stop all energetic experiences and I remind myself that I am accessing the ‘Man Eater’ character or it’s polar opposite of the ‘Willing pray’ depending on the dynamic I experience between myself and the other person and that nothing good has ever come out of me executing this character into action and that it’s starting-point isn’t what is best for all. Because I see, realize and understand that the starting-point of the ‘Man Eater’ character has nothing to do with sexuality or relationships or the actual seeking out of a partner, but only has to do with an energetic experience of thrill, power and control that is pure evil as pure ego. I hereby commit myself and make a directive decision within and as myself to stop participating in all ‘hunger games’ or ‘hunting games’ towards chasing other people sexually because I see, realize and understand that the starting-point of such games isn’t what is best for all, as this character and energetic entity is based solely on self-interest. I also commit myself to stop any and all experience towards other people as being potential sex partners because I have made a commitment to walk with one partner in this life in an equal and one agreement of assisting and supporting ourselves to become our utmost potential and I honor that agreement absolutely. Therefore I commit myself to stop participating in and accepting thoughts of desire towards other human beings because I see, realize and understand that this serves absolutely no practical purpose as it is only an energetic purpose that has no care or consideration for actual physical life or substance. As such I commit myself to stop, deconstruct and let go of the ‘Man Eater’ as I’ve identified myself within and as and I commit myself to let go of the desire to seduce, consume and control other people sexually for the sake of me feeling powerful and empowered – because I see, realize and understand that this isn’t real empowerment as all that gets ’powered’ is the energy in my mind with devastating consequences for the physical and for myself and other people.

When and as I see that I am accepting and allowing myself to see, perceive and experience other people and in my case, males in particular, as sexual objects or potential sexpartners – I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to instead focus on seeing other people as equals here, as beings who are equally here as life. Because I see, realize and understand that seeing other people as sexual objects or objects of desire otherwise isn’t real in any way as one is only actually seeing one’s own self-interest and perceived lack that one then believe that ‘devouring’ another human being or that which one see in another will somehow fulfill this lack. As such I commit myself to instead bring the points that I desire in/as other human beings back to myself and in common sense investigate how/why it is that I am not living this in/as myself and then accordingly walk a process of changing and expanding myself to equally as one live and express that which I see in another as myself.

When and as I see that I am accepting and allowing myself to participate within and as a desire to be ‘adored’, ‘wanted’ and ‘desired’ by another human being, I stop and I breathe and stabilize myself here within and as myself and my physical body. Because I see, realize and understand that when I am looking for something for myself in another, it is an indication that I’ve separated myself from/of/as that point within and as me and so by seeking it in another I am actually only confirming my own separation from/as the point even further, thus pushing myself further away. Therefore – I commit myself to when and as I see that I am desiring for another to feel something for me or to be something so that I can have a certain experience for/within/as myself to bring this point back to myself and investigate what it is that I am not living in/as myself and then accordingly walk a process of amalgamating myself with/within/as this point.

When and as I see that I’m accepting and allowing myself to feel and experience myself as weak and powerless towards males in particular, as indicated by how I want to change myself and my behavior and make myself appear to them as more than who and what I believe myself to be, in and as inferiority – I stop. I breathe and I stabilize myself here within and as my physical body and myself.  I see, realize and understand that I’ve projected my own acceptance and experience of myself as being inferior, weak and powerless onto males and as such I’ve held males responsible for this experience of and as me, but have within that also given my perception of this relationship the power and authority to define and determine my value. Therefore I commit myself to take back my authority and power of defining who and what I am back to myself by taking responsibility for myself within and as also seeing, realizing and understanding that I am not weak, powerless or inferior and that this experience of myself is to a large extent founded in me having believed in cultural polarities assigned to males and females and between males and females which has nothing to do with our actual, practical value as beings, equally existing here in this reality. As such I commit myself to develop self-integrity, self-respect and self-worth through the directive decision that I am making here to care about myself and stand with and within myself in the expression of who I am. As such I commit myself to develop and establish a sound sexuality and sexual expression that is based on my self-expression as who I am here within and as the physical based on the principle of what is best for all and not as an energetic thrill or possession that has no regard for life.

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 Discontinuing The Sexual Hunger Games: DAY 211