Gluttony: DAY 107

September 9, 2012 in Anna's Journey to Life

The Gluttony by foxalex Gluttony: DAY 107

What is Gluttony? Why do we become Gluttonous? Is there no end to Gluttony? When will we stop Consuming Life to be Life? How does one stop being a Glutton?

(It is suggested to watch The Century of The Self for context to this blog series)

I am continuing here with Self-Corrective Self-Commitment statements on the Consumption Character from:

When and as I see, that I am accepting and allowing myself to participate within and as fear as equating the feeling/experience of ‘nothing’ when I don’t have an external point of stimulation on or inside my body with dying/not being alive and thus within and as that believe that when I take/get a point of external stimulation I will be/become alive and not die – I stop. I breathe and I bring myself back here to myself in and as my physical body in self-integrity within and as the decision and dedication to stand up in equality and oneness as what is best for all.

When and as I see, that I am accepting and allowing myself to fear not being alive/living/that I will die if I don’t have an external point of stimulation to consume/ingest/digest within and as me – I stop. I breathe and I bring myself back here to myself in and as my physical body in self-integrity within and as the decision and dedication to stand up in equality and oneness as what is best for all.

I see, realize and understand that I have equated and defined living/being alive with/as only an energetic experience of MORENESS that I’ve derived from consuming the physical and I see, realize and understand how this is in fact how I’ve lived and existed in/as the exact opposite of living/being alive and how the consequence of me living this miss-equation is in fact the depletion, destruction, death of me and through which I’ve never in fact accepted or allowed myself to live, because I only believed/accepted/experienced living as something MORE than what is Here, not seeing realizing or understanding that MORE and LESS is an interdependent polarity manifestation that within it’s construct/design is infinite as MORE always wants MORE and always equates /produces/is produced by the acceptance/manifestation/experience of LESS

I commit myself to stop hunting/chasing/wanting/needing/desiring MORE than what is HERE and I commit myself to realize that what is HERE is WHOLE yet that I determine and direct what that WHOLENESS is – which is at the moment, because of who and what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become in my desire for MORE, is in fact LESS – because I’ve denied, disregarded, devalued what is HERE as WHOLENESS as myself as who I am

gluttony 1126 Gluttony: DAY 107When and as I see, that I am accepting and allowing myself to participate within and the Consumption Character in and as constant fear of lacking, losing, not being satisfied or full or whole – I stop. I breathe and I bring myself back HERE to myself in and as my physical body in self-integrity within and as the decision and dedication of/as myself to stand up in equality and oneness as what is best for all

I see, realize and understand that the only reason I would fear/experience myself as NOT whole, is because I have already accepted myself as a hole – as a manifestation of lacking/loss/leaking as a separate entity that exists in competition with everything/everyone else to consume life – and I see, realize and understand that my want/need/desire to become whole/full/complete/satisfied is in fact me confirming and validating and legitimizing myself as half/hole/lost/losing/lacking/leaking within and as accepting myself as separate from what is HERE as myself in and as my physical body and as all of existence as a whole

I see, realize and understand that I can never ‘get to’ WHOLENESS unless/until I realize that I exist within/as the WHOLE that is Here as all of existence – and thus I see, realize and understand that I within my desire/want/need/urge/chasing after MORE – as wholeness, completeness, satisfaction, fullness – was in fact only confirming/validating and legitimizing my own DELIBERATE Self-Separation where I in fact did not want to be WHOLE, but wanted to CONSUME ALL and TAKE ALL and in my delusional belief defined this as being/becoming WHOLE while all I did was digging myself into and as a bigger and bigger HOLE in/through/as my mind

Thus – I see, realize and understand that being WHOLE means to give up the delusion/illusion of separation, which means that I must realize myself as the WHOLE that is HERE and take responsibility for myself as the WHOLE that is here and walk-with/as the WHOLE that is HERE in bringing myself back to WHOLENESS in/as Equality and Oneness – which I can only do – if I give up and let go of my quest to become/be/get/have/consume/take MORE and

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application in taking responsibility for myself as who and what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become within and as my abdication and separation of and from myself to transform myself into a being, as a human being that GIVES to all as myself as I FOR-GIVE me in GIVING myself back to myself – through stepping out of the Consumption Character as the Desire for MORE/Fear of LOSS

I commit myself to become someone that GIVES as I would like to receive and I see, realize and understand that I can only do/be/live that by letting go of FEAR of LOSS because it is through fear of loss that I am keeping myself existing within and as the Consumption Character in greed and self-interest

When and as I see that I am accepting and allowing myself to participate within and as fear that whatever I perceive/experience/believe that I have, will be taken from me by another as outside and separate from me and that I will thus be lacking/losing that which I have – I stop. I breathe and I bring myself back here – to myself in and as my physical body in self-integrity in and as the decision and dedication of/as myself to stand up in equality and oneness as what is best for all

When and as I see that I am accepting and allowing myself to participate within and as an urge/want/need/desire to take/get/have/consume MORE based on the fear that another will take form me what I believe that I have – I stop. I breathe and I bring myself back here – to myself in and as my physical body in self-integrity in and as the decision and dedication of/as myself to stand up in equality and oneness as what is best for all

I see, realize and understand that when/as I accept and allow myself to justify and thus act on the urge/want/need/desire to take/get/have/consume MORE based on the fear that another will take form me what I believe that I have, I am directly and indirectly responsible for and the creator of the inequality existing on earth, where countless beings are suffering in absolute hell while a minute few exist in over-consumption and just keeps consuming/taking more and more

Thus – I commit myself to stop, delete and let go of the urge/want/need/desire to take/get/have/consume MORE and I commit myself to develop a way of living that is in equilibrium with/as all life as what is best for all through the implementation of an Equal Money System and through bringing myself back here to the physical in and as equality with/as my physical body through breathing/breath

When and as I see, that I am accepting and allowing myself to go into and as a positive energetic experience when I consume/have consumed something externally onto or in my body where I feel and experience myself satisfied/full/whole/happy/excited/relaxed/feeing complete/whole – I stop. I breathe and I bring myself back here to myself in and as my physical body in self-integrity in the decision and dedication of/as myself to stand up in equality and oneness as what is best for all

I see, realize and understand that the Consumption Character is not Real – because the Consumption Character is not HERE in and as the Physical, yet it is dependent upon the Physical to maintain itself as it extracts energy from the physical only to maintain itself as the Consumption Character

I see, realize and understand that the positive energetic experience that I’ve derived from Consuming the Physical has been within and as experiencing myself obtaining/getting/being/becoming/having MORE which in fact only has been within and as experiencing/accepting myself as LESS in and through my separation of and from myself HERE in and as the physical

2010 gluttony 80x65 819x1024 Gluttony: DAY 107I commit myself to stop participating in positive energetic experiences when consuming something externally in and onto my physical body and I commit myself to change myself into someone who nurtures myself in oneness and equality with/as the physical and through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application investigate and get to know myself in detail and specificity as all the points/parts/aspects of and as myself through which I have accepted and allowed myself to consume more than what is required for me to sustain myself and to develop a way of nurturing myself in a way that is best for all through getting to know and understand how the physical works in detail in equality and oneness so that I can direct myself accordingly

I commit myself to support myself to walk through and breathe through the fear of not constantly consuming and to support myself through breathing, to remain here in and as my physical body in and as stepping out of the mind and the addiction to energy that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to become consumed by/within/as

When and as I see, that I am accepting and allowing myself to through backchat participate within and as a belief/idea/experience as a justification that it is the physical that – as something separate from me – is ‘demanding/craving/needing/urging/wanting’ to consume and thus that I am blaming the physical and making the physical responsible for my addiction to energy and my abdication of myself to the Consumption Character – I stop. I breathe and I bring myself back here to myself in and as my physical body in self-integrity in the decision and dedication of/as myself to stand up as life in equality and oneness as what is best for all.

I see, realize and understand that by projecting myself as the Consumption Character onto the Physical I have abdicated self-responsibility for myself as the creator of the Consumption Character and have thus abdicated myself to the Consumption Character within and as accepting the Consumption Character as MORE than me – as Superior to me here in the physical and that I have thus abdicated my power to change myself and to stop and step out of the Consumption Character

I commit myself to equalize myself to/as the Consumption Character by taking responsibility for myself as the creator of and as the Consumption Character and accordingly take responsibility for stopping, deleting and stepping out of the Consumption Character

(To be continued)

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 Gluttony: DAY 107