July 20, 2012 in Anna's Journey to Life
Introduction. This is part 4 of 4 blogs I have written on the phenomenon of ‘Animal Crush Fetish’. In the last blog, I shared self-corrective statements on points regarding this phenomenon particularly pertaining to how we’re participating in creating it through pretending like it does not exist and ignoring it and through making moral judgments about what kinds of abuse is justifiable and what is not. In this last blog post I will share self-commitment statements directly related to the experience of sexual gratification that people experience when they watch animal crush videos as well as the point of people creating and participating in animal crush, such as the ones getting paid to make the videos and those that sell them.
In my self-forgiveness statements I took these points and placed myself in the shoes of those participating in animal crush. Now to make clear: it is easy to say; “well this is not personally about me and I am not like that” and I have also experienced an inclination to disclaim myself from such abuse – but that is exactly the same as separating oneself from it once again, into and as a moral judgment. The fact of the matter is that all of us have participated in and as such a manifestation as animal crush porn. When we masturbate to images we have convinced ourselves are harmless, when we spend an excess amount of money on things we don’t need and don’t care where they come from or who produced them. When we are willing to do anything for money.
Read parts 1-3 here
Suggest to in conjunction with the points in this post to read this blog by Cerise Poolman and my blog post about being an animal lover. If you don’t know what animal crushing is, you can read about it here. I am here looking at the different dimensions involved in the manifestation of animal crushing and what it represents and the characters through which it is being acted out in the world-system.
I commit myself to support others as myself to STOP all sexual masturbation and gratification through looking at and thinking about abuse of ANY life-form and to through my participation with Desteni, the Desteni I Process, The Equal Money System and in my physical participation to assist and support those who are trapped and enslaved in an addiction to porn and masturbation, as I support myself – to stop – and to develop a sexual relationship with myself and with another in agreement that is physical and in fact best for all and NOT based on providing energy for the mind to reproduce itself.
I commit myself to show that human beings who are turned on by violence and abuse are no more evil than anyone else – and that their turn-on is no different than the general manifestation of self-interest within and through fear of not surviving and therefore to judge or despise them, is simply us separating ourselves from and abdicating our own self-responsibility for who and what we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become and as such we have an equal and one responsibility to support and assist those beings who are addicted to porn, abuse and violence exactly as I support myself and we all support each other to stop accepting and allowing ourselves to accept and allow abuse in and as ourselves and in and as this world
I commit myself to STOP accepting and allowing myself to recoil when and as I am faced within and as a point that I don’t want to face myself in and as, that I fear facing myself in and as, that I resist facing myself in and as –
Within this, I commit myself to, when and as I see that I am experiencing a want/need/desire/inclination to recoil from a point I am resisting to face – to Stop, Breathe and simply push through in writing the point out immediately
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application stop the moral judgment character that I have participated within and as towards sexual desires and experiences of arousal – as I see, realize and understand that moral judgment as I have defined, experienced and accepted it, is virtually non-existing and has NOTHING to do with any form of real morality in fact and only serves the mind’s agenda within and as a boundary point that I through my participation within and as it, manipulate myself to not go to a point and face myself within and as it – such as sexuality
So – I commit myself to, when and as I see that I am judging myself for participating within and as an experience of sexual desire/arousal – to stop, breathe and bring myself back here and to embrace myself within and as the point of sexual arousal and through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, investigate, deconstruct and release myself from energetic sexual desires and experiences as I see, realize and understand that ANY participation in energy has no other purpose than to generate energy for the mind, which in turn is draining and abusing life – only caring about the continuation of and as the mind
I commit myself to show and share how the human experiences itself as god over life and as powerful over life and within this use and abuse this self-proclaimed godhood to abuse, exploit and enslave life – specifically because I as a human have experienced, existed within and as and have accepted myself as having no self-direction, no control or mastering over life or myself and feel that I am like a small animal being crushed by the big world within and as how I’ve abdicated myself to the mind and as such from within and as my acceptance of myself in and as the mind, have attempted to gain power and control over life, not seeing realizing or understanding that as I am existing in self-created annihilation of life as myself, I will be inferior to the mind as that is what I have accepted myself as
I commit myself to, when and as I see that I am participating in my world and my reality based on an experience of power and control over life and life-forms, to stop and not accept or allow myself to participate in this experience – but to develop a way co-exist and interact with other life-forms in equality and oneness
I commit myself through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application investigate and dismantle and expose all desires, wants and needs for self-empowerment through which I have deliberately abused and been abusive towards life and life-forms, so that I would feel better about myself, because I see, realize and understand that I have been attempting to empower myself through, as and within the mind through claiming power over the physical – while in fact have known all along that I, within and as the mind, am less than the physical.
As such, I commit myself to show and share how the power we as humans have claimed over life and the abuse and enslavement of life we have done deliberately to gain power over life, is deceptive and illusory as I see, realize and understand that what is real, substantial and powerful in the world, is the physical and that it is through my direct acceptance and allowance that I have made the mind the god of life and as such have accepted and allowed myself to exist and live within and as an illusion that I myself have abdicated myself to
Therefore: I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, step out of the characters of the mind that I have given power as life and as such abdicated myself to and separated myself into and as – so that I may step into and as the physical as power as life and thus I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application deconstruct and release myself from power within and as the mind to power as physical living, from self-interest, fear and separation to what is best for all
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application deconstruct and release myself from the addiction to energy that I have accepted and allowed myself to become consumed by to the point where I have not cared about anything, but getting my next fix of energetic experience – through walking each point of manifestation and characters that I have separated myself into and as and as such have abdicated myself to, through which I have maintained and participated in the addiction to energy
Within this, I also commit myself to – when and as see that I experience a want/need/desire for an energetic experience, to stop – and breathe in realizing that I do not require energetic experiences to live or to direct myself here and so support myself through breathing to remain here in and as the physical
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application assist and support myself to stop living and existing in and as self-interest in and as the mind and to change my living statements within and through the living word to live in a way that is best for all, walking through all characters that I have assumed and separated myself into and as, point by point, breath by breath until I can stand here as a character of life
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to stop living and existing in such a way where all that matters to me and all I care about is myself as a separate mind-entity and my own experiences and thoughts
I commit myself to, when and as I see that I am participating in judgment towards people who are deliberately abusing animals, the earth or other humans – because I see, realize and understand that it is my own judgment towards myself that I am projecting onto others as outside separate from me and as such separate myself from my own deliberate abuse
I commit myself to show and share as I have shown and shared with myself, that only those who have money are in a position of making ‘moral judgments’ as those who does not have money are forced to do whatever it takes to survive and cannot afford to place morality over survival – and as such show and share that these moral judgments are not real because they are made based on and within a system of inequality – and that the only valid moral is that which stands for what is best for all
I commit myself to, and as such all as myself, to place myself in the shoes of those who do not have money and to share and show how they are forced to do whatever it takes to survive and how I, as all, have created a world-system of inequality, where those who have blame and judge those who do not have as though they have a choice to make moral judgments, when in fact those who have, are directly responsible for the life-situation of those who do not have
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to deconstruct and release myself from the ‘survival character’ that I have assumed and separated myself into and as where all I care about and where all other characters are based on me only caring about my own survival in and as the mind as energetic experiences/accumulation of energy and in the world through accumulation of money
I commit myself to assist and support another, as I have assisted and supported myself to stop masturbating and to stop the addiction to masturbation through, as and within the mind and to see and realize and understand that masturbation is NOT non-consequential and only something that is between ourselves and our own minds in and as the secrecy of our own privacy – because there is no such thing as privacy or non-consequence as we are all interconnected in every way and everything we do and participate within and as has consequences for the well-being of all
As such, I commit myself to expose the secret mind of myself as all – so that we may hold ourselves accountable for how, who and what we accept and allow ourselves to participate in and as through our secret minds, is directly manifested into and as the world – and as such take self-responsibility for changing, correcting and aligning ourselves to what is best for all
I commit myself to assist and support those, who are obsessed with and addicted to sexual fetishes as I assist and support myself – to stop the addiction to energetic sexual experiences and to develop a sexuality that is physical and based on self-expression in a way that is best for all
If you are experiencing addiction to sexual fetishes and/or masturbation, suggest joining us at the Desteni Forum where assistance and support is provided from others who have effectively stopped addictions to porn and masturbation. Also suggest considering the Desteni I Process as an intensive course through which one can assist and support oneself to stop addictions. On Eqafe an extensive amount of interviews are available that in detail explains and walks through the design, creation and manifestation of masturbation and sex. If you have any additional questions, you are welcome to send me a mail at firstname.lastname@example.org
Writings on Sex:
More Journey to Life Blogs on Animals:
Day 31 – It’s Just an Animal: http://agirlsjourneytolife.wordpress.com/2012/06/24/day-31-its-just-an-animal/
Day 45: Can we “Own” an Animal ? : http://adirectorjourneystolife.blogspot.com/2012/05/day-45-can-we-own-animal.html
Day 31: Abandoned Animals: http://cathy4worldequality.wordpress.com/2012/05/17/day-31-abandoned-animals/
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