July 14, 2012 in Anna's Journey to Life
Introduction: In this blog post, I share Self-Corrective statements on the point of ‘feeling good when being bad’ and the fake moral judgment character that goes with,that I have been writing about in the last posts. Read the first two parts of this point here:
I see, realize and understand that I have equal as one, created, manifested and participated within and as a fake moral system, wherein and from which we’ve presented ourselves as moral beings – while in fact living and existing in greed and self-interest, in our actions and in our own relationships with ourselves, each other and the earth. I see, realize and understand that we’ve created this moral character to cover up the reality of who and what we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become – and as such that I as a child believed the lie – instead of trusting what I experienced inside and as myself and instead of questioning myself within and as that in self-honesty, accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself through creating, manifesting and participating in the belief and idea that 1) the world and people are good, because that is what they say and present themselves as, 2) there is something wrong with me because I do not see or experience myself as good and because I feel good when I do bad things and as such concluded and accepted that I was bad and thus deliberately made myself feel bad and experience guilt, shame and self-judgment towards myself
When and as I see that I am participating in experiences of guilt/shame/self-judgment I stop. I breathe and I do not allow myself to continue in the experience because I see, realize and understand that it pertains to a moral judgment character that is not real, that I have assumed for myself as a cover up for hiding who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, where I have used and abused the moral judgment and subsequent experience of guilt/shame/self-judgment to legitimize for myself the ‘bad’ I am doing and as such define myself as good for feeling bad about being bad – and I instead face myself in self-honesty and look at the point/person/manifestation I am experiencing guilt/shame/self-judgment and I commit myself to look and see in self-honesty whether this is best for all and if not, I commit myself to stop and delete this point and stop my participation within and as it, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application.
I commit myself to show and expose and share the realization that moral judgment as it currently exists and is presented in the world and in people’s minds in their relationship with themselves and the world – is not real and that we’re in fact using this moral judgment as a cover-up to both hide and legitimize who and what we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become in and as greed and self-interest
I thus commit myself to support others, as I support myself to stop participating in moral judgments and subsequent experiences of guilt/shame/self-judgment and to develop and apply a form of moral that is based on practical reality in common sense simplicity see whether a point /manifestation is best for all or not – and if not, to correct/change/stop and align this to what is best for all
I commit myself to show and share with others as I have shown and shared with myself that the reason why we ‘feel good when doing bad’ is because of the relationship we’ve developed towards ‘bad’ in defining, perceiving, seeing, experiencing and accepting ‘bad’ as ‘free’ and ‘exhilarating’ in the energetic reaction we create, manifest and participate within and as ourselves when we do something we believe that we’re not supposed to do and feel good about it
I commit myself to show how I, as all, have abused and used ‘feeling good about doing bad’ to cause harm and pain to myself and others – as I within and as the addiction towards the energetic experience I experience when I do/se/participate in something I have defined as ‘bad’ and feel good about it, have only cared about my own energetic experience and surge of energy and have accepted and allowed myself to do anything to anyone, including myself and my own human physical body to get that experience of energy
I see, realize and understand that moral judgment is not real – but that does not mean that it is acceptable to do whatever we feel like, simply because it feels good – because within that we are enslaved to feelings and experiences and what direct us is the mind in its demand for energy in and as the delusionary and illusionary entity we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become and what is abused, wasted and disregarded is ourselves as life, as the physical actual reality
I commit myself to stop, delete and release myself from all characters of morality as I see, realize and understand that they are not real and even more so that I have created them to abdicate self-responsibility for myself as who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become to present myself as a character of moral judgment, even though I am not actually a moral being in anyway whatsoever, or I would have created a world that is best for all
I commit myself to here stop and delete the belief, experience and acceptance that I am bad – because I see, realize and understand that the belief in bad can only exist if the belief in good exist – and it is clear that good does NOT exist in this world
When and as I see myself participating in the belief/idea/experiences that others are good/pure/morally correct and that I am bad/dirty/morally corrupted – I stop. I breathe and I remind myself that morality does not exist and that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create a false character of moral judgment that I accept as real and accept and allow myself as others to participate within and as, in presenting ourselves as moral, when we are in fact not – I commit myself here to only accept and allow and participate within and as a morality of common sense self-honesty as a practical seeing of what is best for all and what is not best for all and to accordingly correct and align that which is not best for all, to what is best for all
I commit myself to show and share to others as myself that good and bad are polarities of the same exact system manifestation and design, that I as all have created and designed specifically with the purpose of upholding my own separation of and from myself, where I as all, hide who and what I, in fact have accepted and allowed myself to be and become – and in that agreement, that I accept your character of deception of moral judgment, if you accept my character of deception of moral judgment have accepted and allowed ourselves to keep ourselves separate from ourselves and in fact legitimize and justify the continuation of our abuse of the world and ourselves and each other.
I see, realize and understand that the only valid and legitimate definition of good and bad is a practical, commonsensical categorization of that which is best for all and that which is not best for all, as a practical physical equality equation – an example is that a rotten apple can be good for a worm to eat and bad for a human to eat, but neither makes the rotten apple inherently good or bad within and as a moral judgment – as such I commit myself to only consider good and bad as to whether a point/manifestation is best for all or not best for all – as such I commit myself to stop all participation in moral judgments towards good/bad and the subsequent attraction to doing bad and feeling good about doing bad
I see, realize and understand that I have deliberately created, manifested and participated within and as a guilt character towards feeling good about doing/being bad – and as such that I have created, manifested and participated within and as this character based on a starting-point of deliberate self-deception and self-dishonesty, where I would make myself feel guilty to make myself feel better – yet did nothing to correct or change my participation or even considered whether what I accepted and allowed within and as me, was best for me and best for all – because all I cared about was how and what I was feeling
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within and as and accepting and allowing taboos as suppressions within and as me that I have accepted and manifested through accepting the moral judgment character of the world and of myself and others as real and as such have created a taboo character, through which I hide, conceal and suppress all parts/points of and as myself – and the world – that is not in alignment with the moral judgment that I have accepted as a real character – as such I commit myself to face and embrace all parts of and as me, that I have separated myself into and as without judging myself – because I see that judgment is another character of self-deception that I’ve created to prevent myself from realizing and seeing myself in self-honesty and as such from taking self-responsibility for who and what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become – and I see, realize and understand that as long as I suppress/deny/judge any part of myself and thus project it outside myself as separate in refusing to acknowledge that this is who I am, as who and what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become, I will continue perpetuating manifested consequence of abuse, suffering and self-abdication, in and through which I have no self-direction or self-will because I am living a decision of self-abdication – and I see, realize and understand that that is unacceptable when I in fact have the opportunity here to face and change myself, simply by allowing myself to SEE and HEAR what is here as who and what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be and become, and as such bring all parts back to myself so that I can direct/change/stop/correct/align myself to what is best for all
I commit myself to here sever and stop all connections and relationships I have created towards and within defining myself as a ‘bad girl’ and within and as that associate and equate being a ‘bad girl’ with being ‘free’ and a ‘free spirit’ and as such superior – because I realize, see and understand that the pride I have been experiencing towards being a ‘bad girl’ has been a cover-up for my experience, definition and acceptance of myself in feeling inferior and ashamed and judged myself for being bad – and I see, realize and understand that neither polarity is real
I commit myself to identify, investigate and expose to myself all characters that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to assume and assign for myself, both as positive characters of superiority and negative characters of inferiority – I see, realize and understand that characters can only be played/acted out in relation to something/someone outside separate from me – and as such I commit myself to bring all points I see and experience in relation to something/someone else – back to myself and as support myself to step out of all characters
I commit myself to walk a process of self-trust as trusting myself to be self-honest and to see whether what I am participating within and as is what is best for all or not – and if not, to correct/change/align myself to what is best for all, in my participation and in my relationship to/with myself, with others and with the world and to within and through that support myself and strengthen myself in trusting myself to not needing or requiring a form of moral judgment outside separate from me that I place myself into and as – and such limit and suppress and sabotage my self-expression and my participation in fear of being bad and doing bad and being seen as bad by others – because I see, realize and understand that the only morality that is valid and real is that which is best for all and the ability to see whether a point/manifestation/interaction is best for all or not – and as such I commit myself to stop participation in all other forms of moral judgment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel, experience and believe myself to be superior when feeling good about feeling bad, in seeing, perceiving, defining and experiencing myself as ‘a rebel’, ‘a revolutionary’, ‘a free spirit’ and as such judge and define those who do not dare to do bad as inferior – while in fact judging and defining myself as inferior and as ‘bad’ because I feel good when I do bad and as such have created the superior character to hide from myself the inferior character to suppress myself as it and separate myself from it in perceiving it as a threat to my survival and as such exist within and as a constant and continuous inner conflict
I commit myself to stop and delete and release myself from the relationship and definition I have created of and as myself as a positive/superior self-definition character where I have seen myself as a ‘rebel’ and ‘revolutionary’ and ‘a free spirit’ and judged others for not having guts to stand out – because I see, realize and understand that this self-definition character was a cover-up, wherein and from which I hid myself from myself as actually defined myself as inferior to those I had seen/defined/experienced as ‘morally superior’ to me and where I would suppress myself as who I am as amorality through fearing that I would not be able to survive and sustain myself
I see, realize and understand that, that which feared not surviving and through and as which I submitted and subjected myself to moral judgment, was in fact the mind, as the illusionary entity that I’ve separated myself into and as – and thus I see, realize and understand that I’ve used moral judgment to protect myself as the mind
I commit myself to stop participating in fear of not surviving when and as I do not participate in moral judgment – so when and as I see that I am experiencing fear of being excluded, rejected and judged (and as such not survive) because of not participating in moral judgment – I stop. I breathe and I do not allow myself to compromise myself in complying with the fear through allowing myself to participate in moral judgment. Instead I push myself to do it anyway and to trust myself to act morally within and as what is best for all. (Except when it comes to actual laws of the world-system, which I will not go against as that would have consequences that are not practically supportive)
I commit myself to here sever, delete and stop the relationship I have created within and as myself towards foods I was not supposed to eat as a child and that I developed a relationship of desire towards because I could not have them and as such experienced myself excluded from my peer group and thus threatened upon my survival – because I see, realize and understand that eating food is about supporting myself in and as the physical – and NOT about fitting into a group or experiencing an energetic experience or relationship towards certain foods in entertaining oneself through food
I commit myself to, when and as I see and realize that I am experiencing a desire towards eating/consuming something – to stop and investigate in self-honesty whether I am experiencing a physical requirement for that particular food or whether I am participating in an energetic relationship based on memories of not being allowed to eat this food – I then commit myself to assess in self-honesty whether or not this food is best for me and to if I am not clear on whether the food is supportive or not, to see how my physical responds when I eat the food – as such, I commit myself to transform my relationship towards food from an energetic relationship based on memories, to a commonsensical physical relationship of self-support
I commit myself to stop the relationship I have created of polarity towards that which I have defined and experienced is forced upon me “from above” as all rules and regulations – that I have defined as boring/restricting and limiting and unfair – because I see, realize and understand that it is I, myself who have defined, experienced and accepted specific regulations and rule as boring/restricting/limiting and unfair and as such created a relationship towards these as such – instead of simply allowing myself to direct myself in common sense, in seeing what is required to be done in a moment of participation and what is common sensical to act and participate within and as
I furthermore see, realize and understand that I am not going to be able to create a world and a world-system that in fact is best for all, where all beings live without oppression and regulations that are not best for all – if I do not follow the rules of the world-system as it is now and the rules of physical reality and as such I commit myself to support and direct myself to stand equal to the world-system of rules and regulations and to not accept or allow myself to create, manifest or participate within and as a relationship towards it of experiencing it as boring/restricting/limiting and unfair – but instead embracing, expanding and directing myself within and as it in common sense and self-honesty in self-expression
I commit myself to, when and as I see that I am experiencing a surge of energy as desire/excitement/shame towards seeing, hearing, feeling something that I have defined as ‘bad/wrong’ to stop. Stop the energetic experience and not accept or allow myself to go into judgment, but to simply stop participation in the energetic experience.
I commit myself to stop all judgments towards sexuality and myself as sexual and myself within and as sexual experiences – because I see, realize and understand that I cannot sort myself out within and as the design, expression and manifestation of myself into and as sexuality through judging myself and through separating myself from myself as sex/sexuality/sexual experiences/expression – thus I commit myself to get to know myself within and as sex/sexuality/sexual experiences/expression intimately and in detail, so that I can develop self-honest self-communication and relationship with and within and as myself and my human physical body and stand equal to myself as the mind and the physical and from there assess and see, correct/align and direct myself within and as what is best for all
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