June 3, 2012 in Anna's Journey to Life
I am continuing with the point of the Propaganda of the mind and in the world-system from yesterday’s writing based on Psywar the documentary about the development of propaganda in the U.S. Suggest to read Creation’s Journey to Life blog Thought as God as Origin in conjunction with this blog.
In today’s writing I will bring the points back to self in self-forgiveness, so it will both be points on how I have lived propaganda in my own life and how this correlates with the existence of propaganda in the world-system.
So in yesterday’s blog we found out that propaganda functions in a “machinery” or in a network of institutions, exactly as our own mind uses the body with a conglomerate of “mind-institutions” where one part acts as the government officials, another as the PR people and the media, another as the people on the receiving end of the propaganda who allows themselves to be brainwashed because it suits their own agenda of ignorance. Propaganda is a tool used by those in power to “win over” the general population with policies that are not best for all – it is thus a tool of deception and manipulation. Why would propaganda otherwise exist? If all cards were on the table, all money accounted for and clearly distributed fairly among all people, there would be no reason to “spin” stories or policies in one direction of another. So how is this machinery existent within me as whom I have allowed myself to be and become in, of and as the mind-consciousness-system? That is what I am here to discover through self-forgiveness walking myself into self-corrective application of actually and in fact changing myself within and as my participation in this world and in my relationship with myself and the world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider, see, realize and understand that the propaganda of my mind and in the world-system specifically exist with and within the purpose of propagating policies and thus directions as self-direction and decrees of living that are NOT best for all and to use the tool of propaganda to twist these directions in such a way that what is decided upon by all as the conglomeration of the mind and the world-system appears to be “fair”, “relevant”, “necessary”, “important”, “required”, “desirable” – and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it has taken an entire apparatus of indoctrination as propaganda of deliberate self-deception and manipulation to set this decree, policy and direction in motion until I accept it as a truth, a fact of life and accept myself to live accordingly without question through being directed in the physical by the mind within energy and thought and to be directed by the world-system within money on earth
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, understand or consider that all decrees made by the mind – as myself as the abdication of myself to the mind – are always based on mental production in, of and as energy and thought and NEVER on actual physical movement or physical consideration of what is best for all, so that when I move my physical body around during my day, I do so based on thoughts and energy as emotions and feelings – all based on impulses from the media of the world-system equal and one to the media of my mind as memories of what I like and don’t like and personal attachments to specific points and manifestations such as beverages that has in fact become automated addictions that I believe I must follow (I wrote typo: fall-ow, that I thus owe my fall to or where I fear I will fall if I don’t exist in the “debt” of the mind), that I WANT to follow because I have allowed myself to become brainwashed to such an extensive decree that I as the prisoner WANT to remain enslaved, will fight to remain enslaved, desire to remain enslaved and cannot in any way conceive of a life outside the prison that my mind and addiction to energy and manifestations through which I generate energy based on my relationship with them, has become
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see, realize, understand or consider that propaganda is what I use to re-confirm my dominion over and as myself as the mind as the authority over and as me IN SPITE of seeing in self-honesty what would be best for all and deliberately acting in interest of ego and fear where I, as the abdication of myself to and as the mind, force myself as probing the physical to live by and for the AGENDA that I have decided is the way to go and thus completely, totally and entirely deceive and manipulate myself into justifying NOT standing up for or living in and as what is best for all as myself here in self-honesty
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see, realize, understand and consider that propaganda of the mind to insert its self-interest as ego, fear, energy and greed in and onto the physical – for example manifested as addictions and resistances – is ONLY possible because I have already abdicated myself and my self-direction and self-honesty to the mind as saying: “you can do with me whatever you want, just make sure I don’t EVER wake up, because I want to stay in this dream of deceptive comfort and freedom, so you take over…”
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that I have made the manifestation of thoughts the PR people that spins the story of me here in the direction that suits only the mind as self-interest and cannot be trusted in anyway whatsoever, yet I have done so and have done so in a relationship with the thoughts as a symbiosis, where because I had already abdicated myself, all I needed was a tool to keep myself suppressed, deceived, to direct me in any way BUT to realize myself as life and how I am responsible for the creation of myself as I am responsible for the creation of myself in and as this world
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize or understand that thoughts exist with the single, sole and only purpose of acting as “spin-doctors” to makes sure that I remain enslaved and trapped within and as the agenda of the mind, to exist only within and as self-interest as ego and that I within accepting and allowing myself to participate within and as a single thought re-confirms this bondage for myself over and over and over again – and that the only solution is to stop participating in thoughts and not accepting thoughts as the directive principle over and as me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use propaganda through thoughts on myself to deceive, manipulate and convince myself into continuing to abdicate myself to the mind by deceiving myself into believing that “thoughts are harmless” and that “it is just thoughts” and that “it is probably not that bad” and “I can’t help it” and “I don’t know how to stop” – while in fact the starting-point is my initial abdication of myself TO the mind where thoughts has become the tool with which I re-confirm my “marriage” to the mind equal and one with the world system where we as the people abdicate ourselves to “the leaders” as the media (emotions, feelings and thoughts) and the government officials (the ego) in the deceptive belief that “they probably know better” and “someone has to take responsibility” where the basic starting-point of my direct and deliberate abdication of myself is within the decision to abdicate myself to someone/something separate from me as an institutional placement (the mind and the world-system) SO that I can be “left alone to lead my life” and only have to worry about making money and going shopping and having experiences in the total, utter and complete deception that this is “freedom”, “happiness”, “content”, “pleasure”, “satisfaction”, “life” and “joy” – while actually my constant and continuous starting-point is fear of loss, is greed, is competition, is addiction, is meaninglessness, is an experience of lack through which I constantly and continuously move myself to consume more, buy more while going in circles around and around myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, understand or consider that propaganda manifested existent within the relationship between the parts of myself that I have separated myself into and as, as the part of me that exist AS self-abdication and the part of me that exist AS the self-abdicator, equal and one with the population as the people and the media and the government officials, not actually existing in a power-relationship, but in an equal and one agreement to a “scheme”, a “set-up” that all have agreed to within the joined starting-point of self-separation and self-abdication and as such all parts are equally but also as ONE self-responsible, the abdicator and the abdicated equal and one, as ONE
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, see, understand and consider that when I accept and allow myself to participate in a single thought, which is basically constantly, so constantly that I have accepted one thought at a time as my “state of being”, that I am ACTING within and as the relationship between the parts of and as me that I have separated myself into and as, as abdicator and abdicated, the point of participation is where I directively abdicate and the manifestation of the thought is me as abdicated of and from myself here – because as I am participating within and as the thought, I am not Here in and as the physical, I am in a separate mind-state and within the very definition of a thought, I am acting as NOT best for all, because best for all is in and as the physical, which I am then not because I am participating in a thought
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, within the agreement of all of me as the parts that I have separated myself into and as, as the machinery of the mind, through propaganda as the probe-agenda of myself as the manifestation of deliberate self-deception and self-manipulation to NOT see or realize myself as ALL of me as ONE and EQUAL, have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into believing and thus setting forth the living decree and direction that “a thought is harmless” and that “it is just one thought” and that “it is simply who I am, how can I change that?” and “the thoughts are stronger than me” and by simply already having abdicated myself to, as and within thoughts, through the evidence of how I simply allow the thoughts to run automatically without any form of self-direction – equal and one with how we as “the people” have accepted and allowed ourselves to abdicate our own lives and thus our self-responsibility POWER TO CHANGE through SELF-DIRECTION to government officials and to the media to run our lives for us
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize or understand that the power to change myself goes hand in hand with taking self-responsibility and thus if I am not changing myself through, as and within self-directive self-will it is because I am still abdicating self-responsibility for, over and as myself and equal and one that I cannot give myself the power to change myself and thus I will not change, unless and until I in fact take self-responsibility for, over and as myself as thoughts, as the mind, as addiction, as propaganda of the mind – in self-honesty seeing, realizing and admitting to myself that IT IS ME as who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as ONLY ME in and as the deliberate abdication of and from myself
So I see that I am self-responsible for myself in and as thoughts. And I see that thoughts and backchat exist as PR people and propaganda-spinners for the agenda of the mind which is to keep the mind in dominion, which ONLY exist and exit SOLELY because and as my separation and abdication of and form myself. I see this and I witness it for myself here in writing so that I cannot run away from this seeing.
Therefore I commit myself to walk disciplined in stopping all participation in thoughts because I realize that thoughts are the manifestation of my deliberate separation from and abdication of myself.
I commit myself to confirm the realization for, of, as and within myself that I AM NOT THOUGHTS because thoughts are a program that I have inserted into and as myself – they are not here in fact in and as the physical – thoughts are the representation of my self-abdication and NOTHING MORE and therefore they cannot be trusted because all they serve is to keep me self-abdicated and what I serve by allowing myself to participate in thoughts is the continuous abdication of myself – that has resulted in a thoroughly corrupted world-system where that of me that in fact is life, the physical is left with no voice, not seen, not heard, existing only as something to be consumed, depleted, used and abused for the sake of the mind to entertain itself and get high on energy
I commit myself to support myself to gently and firmly – gently through breath and through walking moment by moment, stopping one thought at a time, not worrying about stopping it all at once or that thinking is bad or wrong and firmly through directing myself in specificity and determination – to terminate the thought-authority that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the living hell of and as myself, that ONLY exist because I have abdicated myself to, in and as it
I commit myself to terminate myself as thought-authority, because who I am as thought-authority is NOT best for all life as all thought-authority exist as, is the continuous separation and abdication of and from myself that has become a tag-game using addictions, reactions, emotions and feelings and desires and fears to constantly keep me pre-occupied and OUT Of the physical and I see that I can only do that through inserting myself in my daily participation as life-authority, even though I am not yet life, I can through breath as a physical support, assert and insert a beginning new directive decree that is NOT thought authority as thought-authority is the representation of my self-abdication – so to insert an authority that is NOT the representation of my self-abdication, but instead the END of my self-abdication, I require a tool that is NOT thought, that is amalgamating rather than separating, that is grounding me here instead of splitting me into pieces and flying me high on energy - that is the physical
I commit myself to establish a point of awareness – as a-here-ness because I see that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate myself to thoughts to such a degree that I don’t even notice that I am participating in and as thoughts and that it is within thoughts that I am directing myself to move myself and to experience myself and I do this within asking myself: “Am I breathing?” When and as I answer the question: “Am I breathing?” with a “No” – I stop and I gently and firmly re-direct myself to stop participation in thoughts. When and as I see that I have not asked the question “Am I breathing?” I know that it is indicating that I am not breathing and that I am sabotaging myself by not asking the question because I have placed the question as a directive self-correction here in writing to support myself. I support myself to ask myself “Am I breathing?” for as long as it takes until I am simply here breathing and can effectively see the thoughts as they emerge, and slowly but surely direct them one by one to their termination and peace as the end of my self-separation and self-abdication because I am Here now to direct myself.
I commit myself to stop propagating the agenda of the mind through the propaganda of participating in thoughts, emotions and feelings to keep me separated from and as myself so that I can abdicate self-responsibility and live in a deceptive delusion
I commit myself to take responsibility for my thoughts because they are MY thoughts as the representation and manifestation of my separation and abdication of and from myself and that is exactly what and how and why they exist as and nothing more and therefore the only result of me continuing to participate in thoughts is the continuation of my separation of and from myself – which is that which manifests wars, inequality, abuse, deception and any atrocity on earth – that can be solved simplistically through me taking responsibility for who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to become in and as the mind – returning myself here to and as the physical through walking my process of self-application and self-change and through participating in the implementation of a world wide equal money system.
I commit myself to support those who believe in the “fairness” and “justness” of the world-system, the politicians, who believe that the media is telling the truth, that thoughts are innocent to see and realize for themselves the web of lies that we have spun around ourselves to not realize ourselves as one and equal within and as the responsibility for who and what we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to accept ourselves as – so that we can pull apart the web of lies and let the life that has been suffocating underneath unable to breathe or move or live, emerge and stand up in and as self-honesty, dignity and self-expression as equals
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