‘Who I am’ as Fear of not Writing Effectively: DAY 33

May 23, 2012 in Anna's Journey to Life

writing 1024x1024 Who I am as Fear of not Writing Effectively: DAY 33“Investigate the practical implication within a self forgiveness statement that must in itself as one statement contain a clear decision as who you are, to such certainty that you without missing a step – immediately live it, as if it is a comfortable bed you get into, as it is a bed you have made for yourself. Created perfectly.” –  Bernard Poolman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create, manifest and participate within and as fear that I will not be able to write myself out effectively

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create, manifest and participate within and as a point of anticipation and expectation that I will not be able to write myself out effectively – and as such accept and allow myself to accept myself to not write myself out effectively

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see, realize, understand and admit to myself, that whether I write myself out effectively or not – meaning self-honestly so that I will in fact change directively and immediately from mind to life as what is best for all – is my responsibility, decision and directive – and as such if I am not effective in my writing,  it is because I have not accepted or allowed myself to direct myself to write myself out in self-honesty and as such that it is up to me to see in self-honesty how I required changing myself in and as my writing and apply myself accordingly

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I have, through my fear of not being able to write myself out effectively, have accepted and allowed myself to justify and abdicate my responsibility for, as and within writing myself out effectively in self-honesty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not write myself out effectively in self-honesty and thereby and within that have accepted and allowed myself to waste time, waste myself, waste my breath, waste the time of another reading what I write, waste life and as such accept and allow myself to spite myself as life and spite life and sabotage myself in and through continuing writing when it is not effective – instead of stopping, re-assessing and correct my starting-point to what is best for all within and as writing myself out effectively in self-honesty, honoring and specifying every word, every self-forgiveness statement to what is best for all

I forgive myself that I, within and through accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will not be able to write myself out effectively in self-honesty, have accepted and allowed myself to make and accept myself as less than the point of writing myself out effectively, believing that to write myself out effectively, I must become more than who and what I am here and as such separate myself from myself here as the directive principle of myself and as responsible for who and what I am within and as writing myself out here

Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to inferiorize myself to writing self-directively in self-honesty and through and within this, have accepted and allowed myself to deceive, manipulate and sabotage myself deliberately to abdicate self-responsibility, because the only way I can justify self-responsibility, is by making myself believe and accept that I am inferior and as such powerless towards changing or correcting myself – even though this is a total self-deception as I am only who and what I accept and allow myself to be and live and exist in and as, as that which I stand one and equal to, with, within and as

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to STOP – and look at my starting-point in self-honesty – that when I am not changing through my writings as a living directive decree of and as myself – then my writing is not effective and I am not effectively directing myself in writing in and as self-honesty and I require STOPPING and realigning my starting-point to what is best for all, in and as directing myself effectively in writing to change, in and as self-honesty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, that if I just write, then the change will happen automatically by itself, as though writing was some magic tool that indicates that one is taking self-responsibility and directing oneself in self-honesty – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that the writing is ME – that it is WHO I AM that determines whether or not my writing is effective or not and how I change myself accordingly in my living-application and that writing in itself is simply a tool, that “comes to life” or through which “I come to life” but ONLY if I accept and allow myself to, through directing myself in self-honesty to in-fact change and correct myself and who I am and how I participate in my world and my reality and within and as my relationship with myself and with other human beings

So – I commit myself to honor myself in writing – to not waste my writings, my breaths, my time, other beings time, my self-forgiveness statements or to waste LIFE  - through directing myself effectively in self-honesty and assist and support myself through seeing the immediate change of and as myself that I direct after having written myself out – as the proof that I did in fact write myself out effectively in self-honesty

I commit myself to write about what matters, what is here in and as me, my relationships with, within and as myself and to and towards other human beings and the world and how I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself into and as the mind and abdicate myself here as life – and as such through writing and applying self-forgiveness, take back self-responsibility, point for point – breath by breath, word for word – in humbleness – through self-honestly support myself through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application

I commit myself to stand by and support myself to stand by the decision to write out what matters in humbleness and self-honesty so that I can assist and support myself to walk through the relationships of the mind, that I have separated myself into and as – so that I can assist and support myself to stand up as li

I commit myself to support myself to write myself out effectively and in self-honesty and to allow myself to trust myself to direct myself effectively

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