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Embracing the Unknown: DAY 204

In this post I will be walking self-corrective and self-commitment statements in relation to the pattern of using negativity as a way (or as an attempted way) to control myself, my surroundings and the possible consequences I might face in my life. I am releasing myself from this pattern so that I can stop deliberately [...]

Saying NO to Feel in Control of Consequence: DAY 203

In this blog post, we are going to investigate negativity/the negative further and go deeper into the two definitions of negativity that I wrote about in the previous post. In this post we are therefore specifically investigating negativity as an adjective – the adjective being that which is ‘added’ to ‘who I am’ AS negativity. [...]

Filling Gaps by Digging Holes – My Relationship with Myself as Negativity: DAY 203

For the first time in a long time I don’t have anything in particular planned to write about. I have myself and a blank canvas before me. The plan was that I was going to continue writing about the relationship characters and dimensions, however in this blog I will be focusing specifically on my relationship [...]

Ride like Lightening, Crash like Thunder: DAY 202

In this post I will be prescribing self-corrective and self-commitment statements on my relationship to positivity and how I’ve accepted and allowed myself to make my participation and application dependent upon ‘how I feel’. The point of this is so that I can walk my days and apply myself without relying on energy , so [...]

Mercy – ME – I – SEE

February 23, 2009 in Anna's Process Blog

OK, so here I am with a lot of regret and shame on my shoulders once again. One thing that I am ashamed about is the way I sound when posting some blogs. I see myself having a cocky, almost arrogant way of presenting myself. It boils down to a desire for being special, being famous and so forth. But I also see, that on the other side of that specific polar river, is the exact opposite manifesting within me. The fear of being stuipid, unworthy, not existing and so forth.
What I wish to do now, is to let these two sides of me come together and speak the truth. The solution as I see it right now lies in the grace of mercy. I have as long as I can remember not given mercy much thought as I often wiewed it as being linked to pety and being a martyr. I see now that mercy is the gift I give myself within forgiving myself. In Danish we have two words for it. The one meaning heartfulness where you have mercy with some one out of the goodness in your hear. This would entail that the being giving the mercy is higher or more rightous than the other. There for in separation. The other is more connected to being redemed from your sins or something like that. Either way I deside to take on a whole new interpretation: Mercy: ME – I – SEE
That mercy towards myself is now to see myself and what I allow and accept in honesty and without judgement or regret, hence the mercy.